Hawkes Harbor Part 20

Grenville believed it. Of course, he'd owned slaves before. Indentured poor, exiled convicts. But Jamie believed it, too.

Louisa had much more experience with vampires, vampire's slaves, than did the average layman, knew much more than most researchers ... She had a cla.s.sic example in front of her eyes. It puzzled her still.

Even though Grenville was now completely human, even though his strange, almost total power over Jamie was supposedly gone, both men still seemed held by the blood covenant that bound them from the first. She still witnessed examples of what had to be telepathic communication between them.

It could be nothing else. For never, she thought, had two such different men walked the earth....

"What did Dr. McDevitt have to say? Did he confirm the prescriptions?"

Grenville knew well enough what a man under the influence of an uncontrollable urge could do.

"Yes, they're legitimate prescriptions. I received my usual lecture about how I'd had no business releasing Jamie, and this time he added how I could have ever overlooked the list of medications he'd given me at the time. He never dreamed the doctor here would prescribe anything else. He never checked on the refills because he a.s.sumed I was doing that."

"After all," Phillip had said with uncharacteristic sarcasm, "You are his doctor."

"And Jamie is welcome back at any time."

"Should he go back?" Grenville asked uncertainly.

Louisa didn't seem to hear him. "Grenville, I did have him overmedicated, sometimes it was just the easiest thing to do- things were so desperate, and Jamie so nervous, but I promise, I never, ever dreamed he was still using prescriptions from Terrace View, too."

She tried a little fake laugh. "It's no wonder he's been such a imbecile, it's a wonder he's been functioning at all.... Phillip asked me ..."

"Yes?"

"If I were certain it was accidental."

"That's absurd."

"Is it? Freud said there are no accidents.... You know, Jamie was put on suicide watch twice at Terrace View."

After a moment Grenville said, "No. I didn't know that."

"Some of these things, the pain relievers, the muscle relaxants, and nowadays they're even suspecting Valium-they're highly addictive. I'll have to start gradually cutting him back. He's going to be terribly anxious."

She paused. "Today-another fifteen minutes and he'd be dead."

Grenville sighed. He rarely gave Jamie a thought. Jamie had been the first person Grenville met in this century- if you could call that violent horror in the cave a meeting-since then, Jamie seemed part and parcel of Hawkes Hall, he was viewed as an extension of Grenville as much as the black Mercedes. So many, so much more important things had gone on in Hawkes Harbor- the removal of the curse, which had exposed a deeper evil still. Then the family, the businesses-G.o.d knows what would have happened to either of them, had not Grenville been there to step in, with money and advice.

Jamie and his problems often seemed more of an irritation than anything else. Yet he had been a good and loyal servant. Even years ago, Grenville had been surprised at how much he'd missed him, during the months of his hospitalization. And today, when he'd feared for Jamie's life...

"You told me Terrace View now has a rehab wing, for the sudden increase in drug addiction."

"I can't send him to Terrace View now. He'd think he was being punished. And he would think you were going to abandon him there."

Louisa didn't add she was sure Dr. McDevitt would make sure Jamie was never released to her custody again-he was head of the board now, she wouldn't put it past him. Phillip was up to something at Terrace View ... there had been maneuvers with the stockholders...

"If we could find a relatively stress-free environment for him, away from Hawkes Harbor, just for a while, where he wouldn't have to deal with all the memories here, it might be easier for him to cope with weaning off some of these drugs."

"Can't we just send him somewhere?"

"You know very well he couldn't bear to leave you even if you found somewhere to send him. He will have to be supervised for a while, and you're the only one who could control him. Jamie is yours, remember. I am to leave him to you."

Grenville regarded her with imperceptible amus.e.m.e.nt.

She constantly wavered in att.i.tude toward Jamie, depending on her needs; he was a friend, a slave-or their mutual child. Finally he said, "Surely, Louisa, you are not suggesting I take Jamie to Disneyland."

Louisa had a strong urge to take Grenville by the ears and shake him.

"Of course not."

"Why do you suppose Jamie remains so devoted to me?

I a.s.sumed that would end when the curse was lifted."

"There is a psychological disorder known as the Stockholm syndrome. Hostages have been known to identify so strongly with their captors that they defend them. You're his only security. Jamie knows very well he's no longer able to deal with that chaos he called a life."

Grenville sat silent for a few minutes.

"Richard was saying ..." she began. His look warned her he had little interest in what his cousin had to say, but she went on. "The Collins s.h.i.+pping industry needed to look into pa.s.senger cruises. They are the wave of the future-you know Roger and his puns."

"No," Grenville said. "No."

"Of course he offered to go. But you could investigate for yourself. And it's not unusual for a man of your position and background to travel with a valet.

"Jamie might be weaned off the medication easier,"

Louisa said, examining her nails. "And he's very fond of sailing."

"No," Grenville said. "No, Louisa. No."

Grenville was at the hospital that evening at six. The doctors said Jamie would awake about then; if the tests were fine, if no liver damage threatened, he could go home.

Grenville didn't want Jamie to wake up alone in a hospital room; G.o.d knew what nightmare he'd make of it.

Jamie was starting to move slightly, mumbling in his sleep. Another bad dream, Grenville thought. Poor Jamie had so many. He still woke screaming a few times a month. If Grenville was still up, and he often was, still not used to wasting the beautiful night hours in sleep, he sometimes went in to Jamie's room and spoke quietly to him for a minute. He couldn't decide if it was touching or pathetic how the sound of his voice comforted Jamie, how swiftly he would go back to sleep.

Grenville could sympathize, having had decades of bad dreams. Being chained in a coffin-it gave you bad dreams. Then to wake to a still more horrible reality- cursed, his family long dead, Sophia Marie gone, his son, unable to use the wooden stake as promised, locking him into the coffin for eternity-and always the terrible hunger, the thirst like the most powerful pain.

Slowly rage had buried every other emotion, like the strongest fledgling destroying its nest mates.

The injustice of it-other men had done so much worse at much less cost. So he reasoned then. A few words spoken in a heated moment to a native serving girl- surely they were taught, he thought, not to believe what gentlemen might say of love-how was he to know the powers her tribe possessed? He had not realized he had asked her for love, until he murdered it and saw it swiftly decay into hatred.

Grenville thought differently now. It did not matter what other men had done and had not paid for. Each case was judged alone and separate, he believed. No matter what had gone on before, what others did after and escaped unscathed ... and surely, to invite love, and then betray it was a mortal wrong ... it was his own hand that laid the curse ... his own doing ...

His thoughts went back to the night of his and Jamie's meeting. He had been almost a pure flame of hatred, that night he'd heard the ancient chains being broken, the lid opening....

How had he ever kept from killing Jamie? It was a source of wonder still.

He'd had just enough self-control to avoid a death-he'd found the jugular vein and, ravenous as he was, he was able to refrain from a kill. He knew that centuries had pa.s.sed, he'd need a guide in a strange new world. And then; the quality of the blood was ghastly-tobacco, alcohol, a bitter narcotic tang; once the edge was off his hunger he was disgusted.

Surely some of his rage those early nights was partly intoxication. The shock of finding out what year it was ... and, finding the tools, next to his self-made coffin, the slow dawning of what the young man had intended...

Even at this late date, Grenville could feel a swift surge of anger. Jamie had felt his wrath that night, and for many nights after ... it was as if he'd been to blame, somehow ... the vile young wharf rat... who'd set the Monster free. Surely everything between them since had been tainted by that meeting. On Jamie's side by terror, on Grenville's by contempt.

He remembered Sophia Marie, whose very shade had risen to reproach him. Not for being as he was, G.o.d knew it was no choice of his, but for embracing it, taking consolation in his powers...

Jamie s.h.i.+fted in the hospital bed, whimpering. Grenville leaned forward, ready to rea.s.sure him.

"Kellen?" Jamie called fretfully. "Kell?"

Grenville took a swift breath, and then stared at Jamie with an incurious surprise. Never, in all these years, did he dream Jamie Sommers had the power to hurt him.

"You win, Louisa," Grenville said. "If we stay cooped up in the Hall much longer I'll strangle him."

As irritating as Jamie could be before, now that Louisa had started cutting back on his medications, he was insufferable.

"He's cowering from his own shadow, jumpy as a cat, and if I so much as raise my voice to him, he starts crying. He has more energy than he's ever had, but he can't focus. As far as any work goes, he's absolutely useless."

Louisa sighed. "I think that not having access to all the drugs he thinks he needs makes him as nervous as the actual withdrawal."

She winced away from the memory of telling Jamie she was taking him off some of his medications, how he'd begged her not to, crying like a baby, finally even offering to live at Terrace View for the rest of his life.

Grenville, she remembered, had been careful to avoid that scene.

And now, Jamie was in a constant state of nervous anxiety, thinking he needed a pill whether he did nor not, as well as feeling the h.e.l.lish effects of the actual physical withdrawal.

Grenville didn't have the disposition to cope with the young man's fears; Jamie knew this and it only made things worse. The last thing he needed, and Grenville admitted it, was Grenville leaving him. He would see it as desertion. It could easily cost him what was left of his sanity.

"He'll never be the same again, will he, Louisa?"

"The same?"

"I forgot, you didn't know Jamie very well or for very long before-when he first began ... working for me he was different. Quite resourceful. Almost clever in a way. And bold enough to risk ..."

Grenville's voice trailed off.

"No," Louisa said. "He'll never be the same."

They remained quiet for a moment.

Louisa decided to take advantage of this moment of guilt.

"Well, ten days will be long enough to lose another drug- I'll send him with a limited supply. Maybe Jamie will be distracted enough to cope with it." "And if he's not?"

"I'll send some strong sedatives with you. If he gets too bad you can just knock him out for the rest of the trip."

Grenville looked grim-hardly like a man facing a dream vacation. "This had better work, Louisa. Of all your little plots and schemes, this one had better work."

New Orleans August 1968 "Wow, I bet the crew quarters ain't like this." Jamie looked around the s.p.a.cious first-cla.s.s cabin. He had never seen a cabin this large on a boat, not even on the yacht on the Riviera where he'd worked as a deckhand.

"Got a private balcony and everything."

Grenville sighed. As s.p.a.cious as the room was-and he had specified the largest he could get-it was still much closer quarters than the rambling Hall. He tried to imagine living here with Jamie for ten days, then dismissed the thought as unbearable.

At least Jamie was distracted from his fears. If anything, he was too distracted; it would take him hours to unpack if he remained this hyperactive.

Jamie ran back in from inspecting the small adjoining room; for children-or servants.

"I wonder what the engine room looks like. You think we could see it? I never been on a s.h.i.+p like this, some of the freighters were this big, but not with all these fancy decks and everything."

"Remember we're researching pa.s.senger cruises for Hawkes Enterprises-go anywhere you wish." Grenville entertained a pleasant fantasy of Jamie roaming the engine room the whole voyage. "Maybe you could investigate how things are run and report back to me."

"Sure, if it's legal and everything. I don't want to get into trouble or nuthin'."

"You won't." Grenville did plan to write up a few notes, use the trip as a tax write-off. "Once you get everything put away, feel free to go anywhere you wish."

"Okay." Jamie wrung his hands together. "Uh, Grenville? There's sure a lot of people here. You think I could have...?"

"No. You can have a tranquilizer at twilight, another one when you go to bed. That's all."

And, Grenville thought, we're supposed to drop one of those before this is over.

Jamie was too excited to go into a sulk. "Okay. Man, it feels so good to be on a s.h.i.+p again."

That's right, Grenville thought. Jamie'd been some sort of sea tramp before they'd-met.

He often forgot Jamie had had any life before.

Well, at least he wasn't cowering around in that disgusting way.

Grenville decided to explore the s.h.i.+p. One this size was new and amazing to him, too. It would be his first sea voyage in this century, he thought. The idea excited him, and he was able to forget all about Jamie.

"I know these drills are a pain, but if you have to get off the boat in a hurry it really helps."

"Indeed." Grenville felt ridiculous in his life vest. The fact that the other first-cla.s.s pa.s.sengers were standing around, chatting, looking uncomfortable in life vests, helped a little.

"Yeah, I had to get off a little cargo s.h.i.+p once-engines caught fire-if the captain hadn't drilled us, we would have been in trouble. It sank fast."

"How interesting," Grenville said, hoping Jamie would shut up. An unpleasant side effect of Jamie's withdrawal was a tendency to chatter.

"Yeah, that time we had to get off a ferry-that was a mess. If you didn't drown the f.u.c.kin' crocodiles got you...."

Grenville's attention was caught by a most lovely young lady, who was standing with two elderly people, obviously her parents.

What an intelligent-looking woman, he thought. "I think they lost about fifty people on that one-it was way overcrowded. I grabbed two kids, but their parents didn't make it..."

Grenville walked over to the young woman. "Pardon me ..." he began. "Geez, do we have to dress up for dinner every night?"