The Sixth Lamentation Part 1

The Sixth Lamentation.

A Novel.

by William Brodrick.

For my mother.

Acknowledgements.

Generally speaking, debts are disagreeable things, especially those that endure. One kind, however, is a pleasant exception. I extend my warm grat.i.tude to Ursula Mackenzie who helped me to produce the book I wanted to write as opposed to the one I had written; to Pamela Dorman for insightful a.n.a.lysis and championing this novel in the United States; to Araminta Whitley and Celia Hayley, both of whom have brought me to where I now am; to Nicki Kennedy and Sam Edenborough for ploughing foreign fields on my behalf. I'm grateful to Joanne Coen for her patience and scrupulous attention to detail in preparing the text for publication. While I dislike general expressions of thanks, that is the only way I can encompa.s.s the many individuals at Time Warner Books and Penguin Putnam who have worked on this novel with unstinting dedication: I'm grateful to you all.

I reserve a particular word of thanks for Sarah Hannigan who encouraged me to write and helped me discover the way I wanted to do it. I also thank: Penny Moreland (who pushed me from doubt to confidence), Austin Donohoe (who urged me to take the risk), Paulinus Barnes (for sound advice), James Hawks (who told me to get on with it); Damien Charnock (who politely remarked upon the prevalence of sentences without verbs); Nick Rowe (who suggested including a list of princ.i.p.al characters); my family (for their part in shaping who I am, and for always smiling upon my endeavours); and my Chambers (for accommodating the peculiarities of someone who is writing a novel). I am grateful to the following for help with specific enquiries: William Clegg QC; Michael Walsh (Archivist, Heythrop College, University of London); Dr E. Rozanne Elder (Director, Inst.i.tute of Cistercian Studies, Western Michigan University); Inspector Barbara Thompson (Suffolk Constabulary); Ian Fry and John 'Archie' Weeks (Old Bailey). I am responsible for any errors of interpretation that may arise from what I was told.

I reserve a special paragraph for Anne. Constant selfless support (all manner, in all weather) and solitary childcare (three of them) combined to mark out the s.p.a.ce that made the writing of this book possible. No formal words of thanks can do her justice or reflect what I would like to say We both thank the community whose quiet presence graces the valley where this novel was begun and completed.

Part One.

'Now is the time for the burning of the leaves'

(Laurence Binyon, The Burning of the Leaves', 1942).

First Prologue.

1.

April 1995.

"'Night and day I've lived among the tombs, cutting myself on stones",' replied Agnes quietly, searching her memory.

Doctor Scott's eyes narrowed slightly. His East Lothian vowels had lilted over diagnosis and prognosis, gently breaking the news while Agnes gazed at a gleaming spring daffodil behind his head, rising alone from a rogue plant pot balanced on a shelf - a present from a patient, perhaps, or free with lots of petrol. Soon it would topple and fall.

She forgot the flower when those old words, unbidden, rumbled from her mouth. Agnes couldn't place where they came from. Was it something Father Rochet had said, worse for wear, back in the forties? Something she'd read? It didn't matter. They were hers now, coming like a gift to name the past: an autobiography.

Agnes glanced at her doctor. He was a nice fellow, at home with neurological catastrophe but less sure of himself with mangled quotation. He looked over-troubled on her account and she was touched by his confusion.

'Do you mean to tell me that, after all I've been through, I'm going to die from a disease whose patron is the d.u.c.h.ess of York?'

'I'm afraid so.

'That's not fair, Doctor.' Agnes rose from her seat, still wearing her coat and holding her handbag.

'Let me get you a taxi.'

'No, no, I'd rather walk, thank you. While I can.'

'Of course.'

He followed Agnes to the door and, turning, she said, 'I'm not ready yet, Doctor.'

'No, I'm sure you're not. But who ever is?'

Agnes breathed in deeply A sudden unexpected relief turned her stomach, rising then sinking away She closed her eyes. Now she could go home, for good, to Arthur - and, funnily enough, to the knights of The Round Table. She'd never noticed that before.

Agnes had known there was something wrong when her speech became trapped in a slow drawl as if she'd had too much gin. She let it be. And then she started tripping in the street. She let that be. Like so many times before, Agnes only acted when pushed. She'd made an appointment to see a doctor only after Freddie had snapped.

They were walking through Cavendish Square towards the Wigmore Hall. A fine spray of March rain floated out of the night, softly lit from high windows and streetlamps. Freddie was a few impatient steps ahead and Agnes, trying to keep up, stumbled and fell, cutting her nose and splintering her gla.s.ses. Tears welled as she reached for her frames, not from pain, but because she knew Freddie's embarra.s.sment was greater than hers.

'Mother, get up, please. Are you all right?'

Agnes pulled herself to her feet, helped by a pa.s.ser-by. She wiped her hands upon her coat as Freddie produced a neatly folded handkerchief. His exasperation spilled over. 'Look, if something's wrong, see a doctor. You won't say anything to me. Perhaps you'll say something to him. But for G.o.d's sake,' he blurted out, 'stop this b.l.o.o.d.y performance.'

Agnes knew he would berate himself for hurting her, as she berated herself for failing him. Neither of them spoke again, save to put in place essential courtesies.

'No, you first, really.'

'Thank you, Freddie.'

'A programme?'

'I don't think so.'

Agnes felt unaccountably tired by the interval so he took her home. She saw Doctor Scott within the week and he made the referral. She saw a consultant. The results came back. Doctor Scott had given her a call, and now she knew Leaving the doctor to a mother of five, Agnes ambled to her beloved home by the Thames where tall houses were cut from their gardens by a lane that ran to Hogarth's tomb. Here was her refuge, among brindled masonry and odd round windows with the copper glint of light on old gla.s.s. On the way she pa.s.sed a troop of children holding hands and singing, the teachers front and back armed with clipboards. Piercing voices dislodged stones in her memory, stirring sediment. Frowning heavily, she thought again of Madame Klein and Father Rochet, Jacques and Victor and Paris and ... all that.

No green shoots of forgetfulness had grown. The memory remained freshly cut, known only to Arthur. And now she was to die, without any resolution of the past, with no memorial to the others. But how could it be otherwise?

Turning the corner past the newsagent, she came into view of the river. The breeze played upon the water, tousling a small boy pulling oars out of time. She slowed, caught short by the resilient disappointment that always struck like a sudden cramp when Agnes paid homage to brute circ.u.mstance.

'Loose ends are only tied up in books,' she said quietly, and she pushed aside, probably for the last time, the lingering, irrational hope that her life might yet be repaired by a caring author. Agnes stopped and laughed. She turned, walked back to the newsagent, and bought two school notebooks.

2.

Freddie and Susan drove over from Kensington that evening, and Lucy took the tube from Brixton.

It was like a set piece of bad theatre: Freddie standing by the bay window, Susan fiddling with the kettle flex and Lucy, their daughter, the unacknowledged go-between, sitting slightly tensed in an armchair opposite Agnes, who was reluctantly centre stage.

'It's called motor neurone disease. '

No one said anything immediately Freddie continued to avert his eyes. Lucy watched her mother keeping still, the flex suspended in her hands.

'Gran, did he say anything else?' Lucy asked tentatively.

'Yes. He expects it to advance on the quick side. At some point I won't be able to walk or talk, but I never did...'

Freddie walked across the room and knelt by Agnes' chair. He put his head on her lap and Agnes, a mother again, stroked his hair. Susan cried. Agnes wasn't sure if it was for her or the sight of Freddie undone. It didn't matter. Agnes continued '... I never did say much anyway, did I?'

After a cup of tea, Freddie and Susan left. There'd been a surprising ease between them all and Freddie had said he'd come back tomorrow night. It felt like a family Lucy stayed on.

Joined by familiar silence, they sat at the scrubbed kitchen table preparing a mound of green beans, nipping the tips between their nails. Eight minutes later they curled up with bowls upon their knees, sucking b.u.t.ter from the p.r.o.ngs of their forks.

Agnes didn't watch television very often but she did that night. After Lucy had left she waited with the volume off for something interesting to appear. Images flickered on the screen, throwing stark shadows across the walls, lighting her face and blacking it out.

The telephone rang. It was Lucy, checking up on her. As she put the receiver down, Agnes' attention was suddenly seized by a grainy black and white newsreel of those elegant avenues she'd known so well, the slender trees and the sweep of the river. It was Paris before the war, almost sixty years ago.

'No, it's not,' she said, looking for the remote control. 'It's the Occupation. All those d.a.m.ned flags.' Merde! Where is it?

When she glanced back at the screen, she saw him and lost her breath - a handsome youth in sepia, with thick, sensual lips, for all the world a reliable prefect. Agnes froze, her eyes locked on the flamboyant uniform. 'My G.o.d, it's him. It must be him,' she whispered. Then she saw a sombre monk shaking his head. The item must have ended.

Agnes did not move for an hour. Then, purposefully, she opened the drawer of her bureau and took out one of the school notebooks she'd bought that morning. Not the first time, Agnes was struck by that puzzling confluence of events which pa.s.sed for chance: that she should decide to commit the past to paper on the day circ.u.mstance seemed to be forcing it out into the open.

Chapter One.

1.

'Sanctuary.'

'My bottom!'

'Honestly'

The Prior, Father Andrew, was fond of diluting harsher well-known expressions for monastic use, but the sentiment remained largely the same. He was an unconverted Glaswegian tamed by excessive education, but shades of the street fighter were apt to break out when grappling with the more unusual community problems.

'It was abolished ages ago. He can't be serious.

'Well, he is,' said Anselm.

'When did he come out with that one?'

'This morning, when Wilf asked him to leave.'

The Prior scowled. 'I suppose he declined to oblige?'

'Yes. And he told Wilf there's nowhere he can go.'

The two monks were sitting on a wooden bench on the south transept lawn of the Old Abbey ruin. It was Anselm's favourite spot at Larkwood. Facing them, on the South Walk cloister wall, were the remnants of the night stairs from the now vanished dorter. Anselm liked to sit here and muse upon his thirteenth-century ancestors, cowled and silent, making their way down for the night hours. The lawn, eaten by moss, spread away, undulating towards the enclosure fencing and beyond that to the bluebell path which led to the convent. It was a sharp morning. The Prior had just come back from a trip to London, having managed to miss the main item on all news bulletins. He'd returned home to find a gaggle of reporters and television crews camped on his doorstep.

'Give it to me again, in order,' said the Prior. He always insisted upon accurate chronologies.

'The story broke in a local newspaper of all places. By the time the nationals got to his home he was here, claiming the protection of the Church.'

'What did Wilf say?'

'Words to the effect that the police wouldn't pay any heed to Clement III.'

'Who was Clement III?'

'The Pope who granted the Order the right of sanctuary '

'Trust Wilf to know that.' Disconcerted, he added, 'How did you know?'

'I had to ask as well: 'That's all right then.' He returned to his mental listing. 'Go on, then what?'

'Wilf rang the police. The first I knew about anything was when the media were at the gates. I had a few words with them, batting back daft questions.'

Father Andrew examined his nails, flicking his thumb upon each finger. 'But why claim sanctuary? Where did he get the idea from?'

Anselm s.h.i.+fted uncomfortably He would answer that question at the right moment, not now It was one of the first lessons Anselm had learned after he'd placed himself subject to Holy Obedience: there's a time and a place for honesty, and it is the privilege of the servant to choose the moment of abas.e.m.e.nt with his master.

The Prior stood and paced the ground, his arms concealed beneath his scapular. He said, 'We are on the two horns of one dilemma.'

'Indeed.'

They looked at each other, silently acknowledging the delicacy of the situation. The Prior spoke for them both.