Italian Kisses: A Billionaire Love Story Part 11

With what I'd decided about how to take my life from here, I knew that I should be upset that he'd come. Upset that he couldn't take the hint that I didn't want to talk to him.

But it's hard to change the way you feel so quickly. Hence the excitement.

He came closer and I saw how he'd pulled the knot of his silk tie loose and popped the top b.u.t.ton of his collar below that.

Now that I knew just who he was, the cynic in me wondered if that suit was worth more than my whole semester in Rome had cost. Then I remembered that time we'd spent in the Coliseum, and my idle thought there about he looked like he would have been at home in the Emperor's box there and how I really hadn't been that far off the mark.

His initial smile at seeing me wilted from his face when he saw the look I gave him. Confusion sketched across his features.

And that look of confusion angered me, for a moment at least. Of course he's confused. How could he know that his secretary had come and tattled on him?

"Emma!" he said, relieved. His footsteps as he came towards me were loud and echo-y in the empty auditorium. "You weren't answering, and somehow my mind got onto how crazy the drivers are here and I couldn't get those awful thoughts out of my head..."

He stopped short, his Spidey-sense or whatever he wanted to call his ability to read people tingling. He probably read the tension in my shoulders, or the way I leaned ever so subtly away from him.

Whatever my cue, he knew that something had happened. Something had changed. And for the worse.

His concern for me was touching, and again I thought I could see the truth of it in his eyes. But now a shadow of doubt had been cast over everything involving Liam Montgomery.

Dr. Aretino also managed to sense something as well, because he stepped smoothly between the two of us, seeing his opening.

"Ah, the dance teacher, yes?" the professor said, "I believe that Emma is finished with your lessons. Perhaps you should leave."

The last thing I wanted was for someone else to fight my battles for me. Especially not the good professor. Any loan of a.s.sistance from him came with an interest rate to put the most unscrupulous of loan sharks to shame.

"Why don't you let her speak for herself?" Liam said.

Dr. Aretino puffed up. As much as watching two men fight over me appealed to me on an animal level, I knew that I needed to put an end to this.

"Yes, why don't you both let me speak for myself?"

Both the men looked at me, sensing the venom in my voice. I hitched the strap of my bag to a more comfortable spot on my shoulder.

"Professor, I'm going to submit a list of extra credit a.s.signment ideas to you by the next lecture... Mr. Montgomery," the flash of hurt on Liam's face cut into me, but I kept going, "As you can see, I am just fine, crazy Italian drivers or not. If you'll both excuse me, I have studying to do."

I slipped by the two of them. Aretino said nothing, though I could sense his appraising and indulgent eyes on my back.

Liam, however, reached out for me. His hand lighted on my shoulder.

"Don't touch me!" I said, jerking away from him so violently that I nearly fell over the armrest of the chair next to me. I'd said it with more venom than I intended, and again I saw the uncomprehending hurt on his face.

This is the right thing, I kept telling myself, forcing my eyes ahead as I marched towards the door.

If it was the right thing, why did it hurt so much? If it was the right thing, why did it seem so much like the wrong thing?

My mood must have spread out around me, because other students scrambled to get out of my way out in the hall. The sun itself seemed to dim when I stepped out. The smile on the face of the normally jovial, flirty bus driver dropped as I hauled myself up the step and flashed my student ID at him.

I sat near the back, the vinyl cover on the seat creaking slightly as I put my weight on it.

I tried not to look back out the window. I really did. Unable to resist the impulse, I let my eyes scan out the window just as the bus huffed and lurched away from the curb.

When I didn't see him, I turned bodily towards the window, pressing my hand to the cool pane. Liam wasn't anywhere to be seen on the bus loop.

I'd been certain-certain-that he'd chase me outside, try to stop me, try to explain himself. That's what a player would do, wasn't it? But he wasn't there.

And then it was my turn to feel hurt. Even though I knew I shouldn't. If he accepted this so easily, it was a good thing. I could get on with my life and he on with his.

"Fine," I said, then again, "Fine," with a bit more venom. My voice didn't hitch there at all. No, it definitely didn't.

My flat looked even smaller, somehow. More cramped. The walls pressed in on me. The window seemed more a tiny jail cell porthole peering out onto a world barred from me.

I tossed my messenger bag onto the bed that I noticed was more a cot than anything. Then I yanked my chair out, the screech of the feet across the scratched old floor s.h.i.+vering up my spine.

I supposed I was so angry because of how good things seemed to be. Liam had seemed so genuinely interested in me, and I in him. He'd appeared so perfect, outside and in. A handsome man on the outside and a good one on the inside, such an apparently rare combination.

I'd begun to let myself be happy again, because of him, to let the world in. And now it was all a part of some game or scheme.

Or maybe it was because I wanted so badly to believe that all the evidence that secretary had presented me was wrong, that all the things I'd heard about him were wrong.

Again and again, I returned to that image of him examining that statue of the philosopher king, or the intimate knowledge and appreciation he had of and for the city.

What I knew about him simply didn't reconcile with what the world thought it knew about him. Yet, I also knew that if I brought up any search engine on my laptop there'd be no shortage of pictures of him with his various exploits, no shortage of articles about the trail of broken hearts left in his wake.

Or of the meteoric rise and success of Ma.s.s Systems. No company became that successful while also retaining any sense of morality or ethics.

Who knew what Liam Montgomery had done for his success?

No, I had to take away from this only the positives and move on with my life. The pleasant memories, the renewed sense of purpose. None of the heartache or the sense of betrayal.

A task about as easy as herding cats.

However, my mind kept returning to one point, over and over: Why didn't he come after me?

So when he knocked on the door and said, "Emma?" a bizarre triumph and excitement ran through me almost as intense as my anger.

"Just go away!" I said.

"You know that isn't going to happen. Talk to me."

Again, that strain of concern in his voice.

When I didn't reply, he tried the latch. And of course, in my distracted state I'd forgotten to throw the deadbolt into place when I'd come in.

He came in and closed the door behind himself. I faced away from him.

"You know," he said, "How?"

"Not from you." That was satisfying. Especially since he took it like a punch to the gut. Despite my attempt at schadenfreude, it didn't feel as good as I'd expected. In fact, the urge to apologize welled up in me so fast I had trouble stifling it.

"I deserve an answer," Liam said.

"I don't know her name. Your secretary. Your cold and beautiful statue of a secretary. The one you're involved with. If that's all, I'd like to be alone now."

"Abigail? That makes sense. But you have to know that the moment I met you it was over between the two of us. I'm not that kind of man."

"That's rich," I said, punctuating it was a humorless laugh, "The liar isn't a cheater. You should add that to your CV." Even in my angry state, I knew I was being harsh. Except I couldn't help it. There was something cathartic, letting all my feelings spill out in a torrent of vitriol.

"I never lied to you, Emma." Even though I couldn't see him, I knew that he'd set his jaw in a hard line, that he'd balled his hands into fists.

"Then why is it I learned who you really were from your most recent jilted lover instead of you?" And that was really the heart of it, that broken trust, that obscuring of ident.i.ty.

"If you know who I am, then you also have to realize that I didn't want all of that changing the way you felt about me. I wanted you to like me for me, not for the money. You have no idea what it's like to see the dollar signs pop up in the eyes of every woman you meet."

I wanted to lash out again, if only because it relieved some of that angry pressure inside of me. Yet I couldn't. What he said made sense, even though I wanted so very badly for it not to.

The desire to be loved for who you are is, in my opinion, one of the greatest equalizers on earth. Beggars felt it just as truly as kings and oil barons.

"Judging by the procession of bimbos you've paraded in front of the media, you've never seemed to mind women throwing themselves at you before this." Again I sensed him flinch behind me. But there was more.

"You've never searched for anything so desperately before?" Liam said, his voice clouding with anger, "You've never wanted something so much that you let yourself accept something less than what you truly wanted?"

I squeezed my eyes shut. I won't let him get to me. "Then maybe you should have told me. How do you think it makes me feel to know that you didn't think you could trust me? Especially after I let myself trust you so completely? I guess you're not as good at reading people as you think you are."

Besides, it wasn't like he'd hidden the fact that he was well off. A five star hotel suite that probably cost more a night than most people paid the bank for the mortgage each month. A great, brand new luxury car. Although I supposed there was still a difference between Clearly Well Off and Richer Than Croesus.

"So you're telling me that wouldn't have changed things? Not at all?" he replied.

I wanted so badly to say that it wouldn't have, but even as my lips tried to form the syllable I knew it wasn't true. But I still didn't think it would have given me the dollar sign eyes he feared so much.

He took me silence as a tacit agreement with him. "I think that maybe we've both made some mistakes. But are they really worth throwing this away?"

This time I did turn to face him. Pa.s.sion had flushed his skin. His hair was in slight disarray, as though he'd forgotten to roll the windows up in his rush to get over here.

Despite the fight, I felt myself run hot and cold for him. Maybe my body knew something my heart and mind didn't. I tried to ignore it.

"What is it that you think we have? You've known me for, what, a week and half? Newsflash, we have nothing."

"You're wrong," he said, "I am good at seeing people for who and what they are. And I knew as soon as I saw you that you are different, special. I knew that instantly. And I know now that it's something worth fighting for, something worth nurturing. Something so not worth throwing away like this. Look me in the eye and tell me you don't feel the same d.a.m.n thing."

I burned for an answer, for some quick quip to rock him back on his heels. None came. Because the truth was, as soon as I looked him in the eye I knew that I couldn't say that I didn't.

And I could tell that he knew that I couldn't, too. That galled me.

Except then the door swung open again. This time it disgorged the rather squat figure of Mrs. Rosselini. She had her hair pulled back into its usual tight bun, a bit of netting over that to keep stray strands from getting into the dough.

Smudges of flour dusted her bared forearms, her white ap.r.o.n, and most notably from the large wooden rolling pin she clutched confidently in one hand, in prime clobbering position.

"Get out," she said to Liam. She squinted up at him, not caring about the way she had to arch her neck to do so, not caring that Liam was more than head-and-shoulders taller than her.

"Madam, please, this isn't what you think. I would never..."

"Go," Mrs. Rosselini said. She shook the rolling pin for emphasis, some flour dust floating and eddying to the floor.

Even my heart melted at that. And no matter how part of me would feel oh so satisfied at watching him catch a couple good whacks, I knew that wouldn't be right.

Even I couldn't help but smile at the sudden maternal display.

"It is okay, Mrs. Rosselini. We were just having a discussion. It's okay. But thank you, really."

"You cannot trust the handsome ones," she said, still squinting up at Liam, who still wasn't certain how to react to her, "My husband, he was handsome. But the handsome, it goes away with the years. Then you see what is left behind. Yes, then you will see."

She prodded Liam in the shoulder with the rounded handle of the pin. It left an irregular flour smudge on the fine tailored jacket that had me cringing.

Liam could have easily shooed her back down the stairs, rolling pin or not. But he didn't. And then I got an inkling of what I would see should the years ever take from him his "handsome," as Mrs. Rosselini put it.

In order to defuse the situation I had to get up and lead Mrs. Rosselini back to the door, a.s.suring her as she went slowly down the stairs that I could take care of myself. She smelled of fresh baked bread and the icing sugar she used on some of the pastries.

"Take it," she said, offering me the rolling pin, more flour dust floating away from it.

"I will be fine," I insisted, waving away the offer. I listened with some amus.e.m.e.nt as she mumbled a few particularly colorful Italian curses as she rounded the corner. The door to her shop opened and closed and I knew Liam and I were alone again.

My anger rekindled when I turned and saw Liam there still. There was the ghost of a smile on his laps. Enough of one to stir the embers of my anger.

"That was... unexpected," Liam said, his anger also apparently deflated in the face of Mrs. Rosselini's display. He wiped at the smudge of flour on his jacket.

"Next time I won't send her away," I said.

"So there will be a next time, then?"

I grabbed my messenger bag from my bed, slung it over my shoulder. The weight of the books had it biting into my skin, but I didn't mind. Seeing Mrs. Rosselini disappear at the bottom of the staircase had given me an idea. And Liam here was a perfect excuse to leave my suddenly cramped flat.

"Not any time soon. I am still angry with you," I replied.

He'd moved so that he stood in front of the door, so that I'd have to get past him to leave. I shouldered him aside, Liam taking a step back to maintain his balance. I grabbed the latch and yanked the door open.

"Don't go," he said.

"Don't try and stop me."

He grabbed my upper arm as I set foot on the landing, his grip not quite painful, but close.

"Let me go," I said, baring my teeth.

"I'm not letting you slide back into your rut, all comfortable in your misery again. I care about you, Emma."

I tugged at his grip, but he held firm. That fire started inside of me again. No one, it seemed, could make me run as hot and cold as Liam Montgomery could.