Shadows Return Part 13

"You fought back, too, didn't you?"

"For all the good it did."

"And did they-?" Still rocked by what Khenir had implied, he glanced down at the other man's lap before he could help himself.

Khenir looked up sharply. "You never never ask a slave that! Do you understand? Never!" ask a slave that! Do you understand? Never!"

"I'm sorry. I spoke without thinking."

Khenir sighed and went back to work. "You're new to all this. Sometimes I forget what that's like. I've been here a very long time, you see."

"I'm sorry," Alec said again, feeling miserable. Khenir's reaction was answer enough.

"Drink your water."

Neither spoke as Khenir finished with the bandaging and gathered up the soiled linen strips and empty cups.

"I didn't mean to offend you," Alec ventured, as Khenir stood and fastened the lace-trimmed veil across his face. "Do you have to go?"

The man leaned down and stroked his hair. Without thinking, Alec closed his eyes and leaned into the touch; it felt like years since anyone had touched him with anything like kindness.

Khenir smiled sadly and trailed his fingers down Alec's cheek. "I'll be back as soon as it's allowed, I promise. Just do as you're told. It will be better for you if you do, and perhaps Ilban will give you more freedom in the house."

He went out and took the candle with him. Alec groped in the dark for the pitcher. The tincture had left him thirsty.

More freedom, eh? Alec pulled the quilts up to his chin. A little moonlight found its way through the grate, and he could see the white puff of his breath on the air. Alec pulled the quilts up to his chin. A little moonlight found its way through the grate, and he could see the white puff of his breath on the air.

He knew he shouldn't get his hopes up too much, but Khenir had unwittingly given him a great deal of useful information. There were at least two others like him here, and if he could lull "Ilban" into giving him the run of the house, as Khenir and the nurse evidently had, then sooner or later he could find a way to escape. Given the very real possibility of having his b.a.l.l.s cut off, sooner would be better. So, he reasoned, he'd play the good slave and take the tinctures, and use every opportunity he had to learn the layout of the house. But he'd have to be very careful. Yhakobin had made it clear that he knew too much of Alec's past to be fooled easily.

Burrowing down into the deeper warmth of the quilts, he kissed his palm and pressed it to his heart. Keep well, tali, and don't think I've forgotten you. I'll get out of here and I'll find you, no matter what it takes. Keep well, tali, and don't think I've forgotten you. I'll get out of here and I'll find you, no matter what it takes.

As he drifted off to sleep, hoping for dreams of Seregil, it occurred to him to wonder what had happened to the other slaves Khenir had alluded to, the ones their master preferred.

CHAPTER 17 17.

Kind Words. Bad News

"HABA?"

Cool fingers and Adzriel's scent brought Seregil close to the surface of waking again. He dreamed of her face, sometimes smiling and kind as she almost always had been, during the years she'd raised him. But in other dreams he was a child again, standing before the judges at Sarikali with blood on his tunic, and she was weeping.

And always that pet name-Haba, "little black squirrel"-whispered close to his ear. Adzriel had called him that first, and then only the ones who loved him-his friends, Kheeta, his sisters...

Another, too.

Haba, come back to us.

Haba, wake up.

Wake...

"Are you awake at last? Open your eyes and show me." A woman's voice, speaking in Aurenfaie.

Seregil let out a soft groan as someone lightly slapped his cheek. "Mydri, don't. Sick."

"Wake up, now. You must drink something."

Consciousness returned slowly. At first he was aware only of a tremendous heaviness, then that scent, and of how hard it was to open his eyes. Something cool and moist pa.s.sed across his eyelids, then his brow and cheeks. Someone was was.h.i.+ng his face.

"Adzriel?" It came out a faint, cracked whisper. His mouth was so dry, and his tongue felt thick. "Where-?"

He didn't recall reaching Bokthersa. Something had happened...

"Open your eyes, young son."

Young son? It was said in the formal style, rather than familial. His gummy lids parted at last and he found himself in a curtained bed in a dimly lit room. A candle burned somewhere beyond the bed curtains and someone sat beside the bed, a dark shape, with no visible face. A sc.r.a.p of memory stirred-a dark, faceless shape lurching at him, a horrid, rotting stench... It was said in the formal style, rather than familial. His gummy lids parted at last and he found himself in a curtained bed in a dimly lit room. A candle burned somewhere beyond the bed curtains and someone sat beside the bed, a dark shape, with no visible face. A sc.r.a.p of memory stirred-a dark, faceless shape lurching at him, a horrid, rotting stench...

A dra'gorgos!

But there was nothing but the scent of wax here, and the faintest whiff of Adzriel's perfume still lingering in the air. Too weak to reach out or even turn his head, he blinked up at the woman, needing to hear a friendly voice.

"Ah, that's better." A woman, certainly, but not any of his sisters.

"Where-?" he asked, his voice a raw whisper.

"Hush, now, and stay still. You've been terribly ill." As she leaned forward and brought a horn spoon to his lips, his saw that she was very old. A long white braid hung over one shoulder, and what he could see of her face above an embroidered veil was lined with age.

Cool sweet water trickled over his parched tongue and he swallowed eagerly, though it hurt like fire. He opened his mouth for more.

The faded blue eyes above the veil crinkled at the corners, revealing her hidden smile. "There now, a little more. Slowly though. We didn't think you'd live, young son."

"Who didn't?" he rasped between sips.

She just shook her head a bit as she gave him more water.

"My sister," he tried again, thinking she might be a bit deaf. "I thought-"

"Adzriel, is it? You called on her more than once. That's your sister?"

"Is she here?" He hadn't dreamed her scent. He could still smell it.

"No, and be thankful for that," she replied, shaking her head.

"What? Please, tell me where I am," Seregil begged.

"In the house of our master, of course." Age-knotted fingers stole to a silvery circlet at her withered throat. Then Seregil noticed the faded round brand on her forearm.

"You're a slave?"

"Of course. As are you." She reached out and tapped something around his neck.

"What is that?" he demanded, though he already had a pretty good idea.

"Your collar, young son. You're a slave now, no different than the rest of us. Seeing the size of that dragon mark on your hand, I'm surprised you ended up here. Maybe the luck of it ran out, eh?" She rose slowly and stepped away from the bed. "Rest now. I'll bring you something to eat in a little while."

"No, wait. Please!" He heard the soft sound of a door closing.

Frustrated and confused, he stared helplessly up at the dark canopy over the bed. He had to gather his wits, and soon!

But it was so hard. He felt sluggish, drugged. The struggle to think made him short of breath, as if he were climbing a mountain rather than lying flat on his back.

He'd been deathly ill, she'd said, and he certainly felt like it. His body hurt all over, and there were spots of a stronger, throbbing pain on the underside of his right forearm, and on the back of his left calf where it rested against the sheets.

Sheets? His wandering mind veered of its own volition. He flexed the fingers of one hand and felt smooth linen and the give of a soft mattress. What slave was given this sort of bed? Had the veiled woman been lying? Had he misunderstood? His wandering mind veered of its own volition. He flexed the fingers of one hand and felt smooth linen and the give of a soft mattress. What slave was given this sort of bed? Had the veiled woman been lying? Had he misunderstood?

But no, he remembered that much from the s.h.i.+p-rough, grasping hands, then pain and the smell of his own flesh being seared, cutting through the fog of illness.

"f.u.c.king h.e.l.l! f.u.c.king, rotting b.a.l.l.s of h.e.l.l!" he whispered helplessly.

He was tucked in tightly under heavy quilts. It took all the strength he could muster to slowly work his right arm free. There, black against the pale underside of his forearm, was a small, scabbed brand in the shape of the letter S. S. He reached up and touched the metal collar around his neck. It was about a finger's width in thickness, the metal rounded and very smooth. He reached up and touched the metal collar around his neck. It was about a finger's width in thickness, the metal rounded and very smooth.

"Aura Ill.u.s.tri!" He let his arm fall and closed his eyes, fighting down a rush of nausea as more fragmented memories seeped back.

The ambush. The smell. The shock of seeing the hideous black dra'gorgos bearing down on him. How could such an abomination appear on Aurenfaie soil? It could only mean that one of their attackers had been a necromancer; no one else could summon the unclean things.

And screaming. He was certain he remembered someone screaming.

"Alec!" Real panic set in then, and he managed to raise his head enough to see that there was no one else in the bed, and no sight of anyone else in what he could see of the room.

He'd called out for his sister, but not his talimenios? Panting, sick, and overwhelmed with guilt, he fell back against the pillow as tears welled in the corners of his eyes.

Screaming. Who had been screaming? Was it Alec? Was he dead, like all the others?

No! he told himself fiercely. he told himself fiercely. No, I'd know. I'd remember that! No, I'd know. I'd remember that!

Yet try as he might, he couldn't be certain, any more than he could summon the memory of what had followed.

The slaver's mark was all he had to go on, and that was the worst possible news, for there were only two places he could be right now: in Plenimar, or in Zengat.

And yet for slavers to venture so far inland on Aurenen soil was unheard of in that part of the country. And what would they be doing with a necromancer?

He tried again to move, but the last of his strength had deserted him. As consciousness fled, however, a sudden realization followed him down into the darkness.

"Betrayed!" he mumbled to the empty room. "Phoria, I'll see you dead!"

CHAPTER 18 18.

Caged Doubts

FOR THE FIRST few days, Seregil didn't have the strength to get away even if they'd left the door open for him. Instead, he had to settle for alternating between fretting over what could have become of Alec and making what observations he could make from his bed. few days, Seregil didn't have the strength to get away even if they'd left the door open for him. Instead, he had to settle for alternating between fretting over what could have become of Alec and making what observations he could make from his bed.

From what little he could recall from the s.h.i.+p, his captors had probably placed some sort of magical ward on him, and apparently he'd had his usual reaction to it. His skin was still sallow and he'd lost a considerable amount of weight. His belly was sunken and his ribs were more prominent than usual. The magic had eaten into his muscles, too, and his arms looked thin. In addition to the brands, he had sores and scabs over a good part of his body. The old woman had been right in thinking he'd nearly died.

He had no way of knowing what the collar around his neck looked like, or was made of, but it was very hard metal. At least it wasn't magicked. He wouldn't be feeling as well as he was if it had been.

Despite his dire situation, he was glad to be clean and comfortable. Even his hair and nails had been neatly trimmed. He knew better than to mistake this for kindness on the part of whoever had bought him, but that didn't mean he couldn't enjoy it for now. It was certainly better than the condition he'd been in, and it gave him a chance to start recovering his strength.

Judging by the slant of light through the window, and the slice of blue sky he could see, he guessed that his room was on an upper floor. It was a surprisingly fine chamber for a slave. Though spa.r.s.ely furnished with a bed and a heavy armchair by the hearth, the walls were paneled with polished wood; here and there the patina showed lighter in places where some hanging or furniture had been removed. The stout door was locked from the outside and no one came in except for the old woman. He caught a glimpse of an armed man at the door whenever she entered.

He slept a great deal and thrashed through nightmares of the ambush-dreams in which Alec lay dead on the ground with the others. He woke trembling and sweating, sick with not knowing whether it was a memory or a phantasm created by his fears.

Interspersed with these dark dreams were others, more snippets and flashes of his own past-of Adzriel and events from his childhood, before he'd been banished. Some were clear, others jumbled and confused, with only the impression of gentle hands touching him. At times they were innocent and he thought it must be his sister, but at others those hands roamed over his body, stirring his flesh and making him ache for more. No matter how he tried, he could not see who his dream lover was. He woke from these feeling sick in a different way, and strangely guilty.

The old woman came to him several times each day, bringing him food and helping him bathe. He was kept to milk and bread, and thin broths, but the servings were generous and he ate everything offered, in order to gain his strength back. But it was a frustrating battle and his body was slow to mend.

His nurse was a hard one to draw out. She was kind to him in her way while he was weak, but grew more shy and nervous as he regained his strength. He kept at her not only because she was his only link outside this room but because it distracted him from his fears.

With some charm and persistence, he learned that her name was Zoriel and that she'd been a possession of "the master's" family for generations, since she was a young girl. She couldn't even remember the name of her clan. Looking into those faded blue eyes, he saw no spirit there, only long-ingrained resignation and lingering traces of fear. She spoke of the "master" with reverence but refused to tell Seregil anything of him, not even his name.

"I daren't," she said, nervously fingering the worn metal band at her throat.

Seregil didn't press her but instead tried to get a sense of the household and whether there were any other 'faie there.

"A few," she told him, eyes going vague. "But I'm not to talk to you about that, either. Please, don't ask any more, young son. It's not for me to say."

"Please, just one more question," Seregil said, taking her hands. Her fingers were bent and chapped by years of hard work. "Is there a young man with long blond hair here? He'd have arrived the same time I did, most likely as a slave. Please, old mother, he's dear to me, and I don't even know if he's alive."

"I've seen no one like that." She pulled free and began gathering up the day's soiled linens and empty dishes. "You're the only new slave I know of, and you're my only concern. I don't know what the master will say when I tell him of all your questions! It's not proper for a slave to act so, and the sooner you know that, the better!"

"I'm a slow learner," he muttered, feeling tired and sulky.