Tallie's Knight Part 6

"And she wishes to visit this school?

I suppose she must have friends there whom she would wish to ask to her

wedding. I did not realise. ""Magnus, what is wrong with you? What does it matter where thewretched girl goes?"

Tish, of course it matters. Do you not realise I asked Miss Robinson

to be my bride? "

"Of course I do, and it will be a long time before I will forgive you for making such a fool of me, Magnus! But that wretched little n.o.body plans to make a fool of us both, and that I will not allow!"

Magnus frowned. The uneasy feeling he'd had ever since he'd spoken to Miss Robinson intensified. His whip tapped a sharp and fast tattoo against his boot.

"What do you mean, " a fool of us both"?"

"She plans to refuse you!"

"What?" The instant surge of temper caught Magnus unaware. He reined

it in.

"How can you know such a thing, Tish?"

"She told me to my head, not fifteen minutes ago. Boasted of it!"

Laet.i.tia noted his stupefaction, nodded smugly and laid a compelling

hand on his arm.

"You see now why she must be got away from here at once. I will not

have a Robinson crow to the world that my cousin, Lord d'Arenville, was not good enough for her!"

"Are you sure?" Magnus was flabbergasted. He had not expected any

girl to refuse his offer. but a penniless orphan? Boasting? If itwas true, it was more than a slap in the face."She actually said so? In so many words?""Yes, Magnus, in just so many words. First she gloated of her success in cutting all my friends out to snare you, and then she boasted of how foolish we would all look when she refused you. The ungrateful trollop! I would have her drowned if I could!"

Magnus stood up and took a few jerky paces back and forth across the small summerhouse, his whip slapping hard and fast against his boot.

"I... I must consider this. Until I speak to you again, do nothing," he said, and stalked off into the garden, destroying the herbaceous border as he pa.s.sed.

No, no, dearest Tallie, you cannot leave us. it was a foolish misunderstanding. What would we do without you? What would the children do? And George and I--oh, please do not let my wretched cousin Magnus come between us--he is nothing but a cold, proud Icicle!

You are family, dearest Tallie, and you belong here! Oh, do not leave us, we need you too much. "I ... I've been sent up to make sure you're packed, miss." The maidservant hovered uncomfortably, wringing her hands in distress.

"And John Coachman has been told to ready himself and the horses for a long journey... I'm that sorry. Miss."

"It's all right, Lucy," said Tallie shakily. Reality crashed around her. Laet.i.tia had not changed her mind. Tallie truly was being thrown out of her cousin's house.

She got off the bed where she'd been huddled and tried to pull herself together, surrept.i.tiously wiping her eyes.

"There's a bag on top of that wardrobe--if you could put my clothing in that... I... I must see to other matters." She rushed out, her br.i.m.m.i.n.g eyes averted from the maid's sympathetic gaze.

Moments later she slipped out of the side door, across the south lawn and into the garden maze. Tallie knew the convoluted paths by heart, and unerringly made her way towards the centre. It was a favourite spot. No one could see over the high, clipped hedges, and if anyone entered it she would have plenty of warning. She reached the heart of the maze, hurled herself down on the wrought-iron seat and burst into tears.

She had lost everything--her home, the children. She was about to become a pauper. She'd always been one, she supposed, but now she would truly be dest.i.tute. Homeless. Taken out and dumped like an unwanted cat.

She sobbed until there were no more tears, until her sobs became hard, dry lumps stuck in her chest, shuddering silently out of her with every breath she drew. Eventually they sub 5 sided, only coming every minute or so, in an echo of the distress she could bear no more of.

What would she do? This very night, unless some miracle intervened, she would find herself deposited in the village square. Where would she go? Where would she sleep? Unconsciously her hand crept to her mouth and she began to nibble at her nails. No one in the village would remember her. The vicar? No, she recalled--he'd died shortly after she'd left. A churchgoer might recall her face amongst the dozens of schoolgirls who'd filed dutifully into St. Stephen's each Sunday, but it was unlikely. It was two years ago--vague recognition was the best she could expect from anyone in the village. And no one would be likely to take her in.

There was not a soul in the world she could turn to.

The sharp, clean scent of the close-trimmed cypress hedges was fresh in the damp, cool air. Tallie drew her knees up against her chest and hugged them to her. In the distance she could hear the haunting cry of a curlew. It sounded as lost and alone as she felt.

She'd been happy at Laet.i.tia's, but her happiness had been founded on a lie. She had deluded herself that she was part of a family--the family she had always yearned for. In fact she was little better than a servant. Worse--a servant was paid, at least. If Tallie had been paid she would have had the wherewithal to pay for a night's lodging or two. As it was, she had nothing.

Enough of self-pity, she decided at last. There was a way out of this mess. It was the only possible solution. She knew it, had known it all along; she'd just been unable to face the thought until she'd explored every other option. But there were no other options. She would have to marry Lord d'Arenville.

Lord d'Arenville. Cold-eyed, cold-voiced, handsome Lord d'Arenville. A cold proud Icicle, who simply wanted a brood mare for his heirs. Not a wife. Not a loving companion. A vessel for his children. A st.u.r.dy vessel! Tallie's mouth quivered and she bit down hard on her nails to stop herself weeping again.

There would be no love for Tallie now--the love she'd dreamed of all her life. But there would be security. And with he thought of sleeping in the village churchyard that night, security was suddenly more important than love--or, if not more important, certainly of more immediate significance.

No, there would be no Prince Charming for Tallie, no Black Knight galloping to her rescue, not even a dear, kind gentleman who was no one in particular. n.o.body for Tallie to love, n.o.body who would love her in return. There was only Lord d'Arenville. Was it possible to love a statue? An Icicle?

Oh, there would be children, G.o.d willing, but children were different.

You couldn't help but love children. And they couldn't help but love you back. Children were like puppies, loving, mischievous and endlessly thirsting for love.

Tallie knew. She'd thirsted all her life, ever since she'd turned six and had been sent away to school.

That was one thing she'd have to make clear to Lord d'Arenville from the start. She wouldn't allow him to send her children away to school.

Not until they were quite old--fourteen, fifteen, something like that.

And she would write to them every week, and send them special treats sometimes to share with their chums. And they would come home for every holiday and term break. And bring any of their school friends who couldn't go to their own families. None of her children's friends would spend Christmas after Christmas alone in an empty school, with no one but an elderly headmistress to keep her company.

Her children would know they were loved, know they were wanted, know that their mother, at least, cared about them.

And the love of her children would have to be enough for her, she decided. It was only the lucky ones, the golden ones of this world, who were loved for themselves, after all. Who found a partner to share secret dreams and foolish ideas with. Who found a man to cherish them.

Cherish. Such a beautiful, magical word.

Tallie took a long, shaky breath, a sob catching in her throat as she did so. Such dreams were for silly girls. She scrubbed at her swollen eyes with a handkerchief. It was time to put her dreams and her girlhood away.

It was time to go to Lord d'Arenville and tell him she would marry him.

It was a chilly, withdrawn and much chagrined Lord d'Arenville who returned from the garden half an hour after he'd spoken with Laet.i.tia.

The house party had been an unmitigated disaster. And now his ego was severely dented by the news that a penniless girl could not bear the thought of marrying him. Part of him concurred with his cousin that he would like to drown Miss Thalia Robinson. Or strangle her slowly, taking her soft, creamy throat between his bare hands. But an innate sense of fair play told him it would be a gross miscarriage of justice if he allowed his cousin to turn Thalia Robinson out on the streets merely because she didn't wish to wed him.

And he had been uncannily disturbed by the sound of someone weeping in the maze. Weeping as if their heart would break. Magnus hated it when women wept!

He'd taken a few steps into the maze and hovered there for some time, clenching and unclenching his fists, listening helplessly. Not knowing what to do. Knowing who it was, sobbing so piteously. Thalia Robinson.

He had told himself she'd brought it on herself, boasting to Laet.i.tia of how she would spurn his offer. He'd told himself she deserved to be miserable, that the girl must be a coldhearted little b.i.t.c.h. He'd made her an honourable offer--there was no need for her to publicly humiliate him. He, who had long been regarded as the finest prize on the marriage mart, hunted by matchmaking mamas and their daughters alike! Most girls would have been grateful for an offer from him, but not Miss Thalia Robinson. No. She planned to humiliate him--and so she was reaping what she had sown. Her regrets had come too late.

Magnus had told himself all these things, but they hadn't helped--he just couldn't bear the sound of a woman sobbing.

The part of him that didn't want to strangle her had wanted to go into the maze and speak to her--and what a stupid idea that would have been! As if women ever made any sense when they were weeping. And as if he would know what to do anyway. He'd always managed to stop them crying by giving them some bauble or other, but then all the women he'd ever known had cried at him, not taken themselves into the middle of a maze on a d.a.m.ned cold day and sobbed their little hearts out in absolute solitude.

Magnus was sure he wouldn't know how to deal with someone who wept like that.

"Tish, I intend to withdraw my offer. She cannot refuse me if there is no offer, so you need not worry about any insult to the family pride.

No one will know of it. I will speak to the girl before any irrevoc--' He faltered for a moment, recalling those cheeky last words: make no irrevocable arrangements. Thalia Robinson had not realised she was sounding her own doom.

"Before any irrevocable steps have been taken.

Have her sent to me at once, if you please. "

"But, Magnus--' " At once, Tish. "

"Oh, very well. But it will make no diff--' But Magnus had left. Laet.i.tia pulled the bell cord to summon Brooks.

Magnus decided to receive Miss Robinson in the library. He would speak kindly to her, show her he bore her no grudge for her poor judgement.

She would have no idea that she had, somehow, got under his skin. He would be casual, relaxed, indifferent. He would not receive her in formal dress, as a gentleman would normally do when receiving a lady's answer to his proposal of marriage. His offhand manner would be conveyed by the silent message of his riding buckskins. It would appear to be a spur of the moment chat, the outcome of which held only lukewarm interest for him.

His brow furrowed as he tried to recall every detail of their previous conversation. A cold smile grew on his face as he realised he had not actually asked her to marry him. Not in so many words. He had spoken of an intention to organise a ceremony. Had used the conditional tense. Thank heavens. He might be able to fudge it. He would make Miss Robinson understand she was mistaken, that he'd made her no actual offer.

It was not an honourable solution, but it should smooth things over with Laet.i.tia--enough to stop her throwing the wretched girl into the streets. And then he would get the h.e.l.l out of this appalling house party and never have to set eyes on the blasted girl or his blasted cousin ever again!

He leant against a high, leather-covered writing desk, one leg crossed casually over the other, awaiting her entrance with an expression of bored indifference on his face. The whip snapped fast and furious against the glossy leather of his boot.

"Lord d'Arenville?"

She'd entered the room so silently that Magnus was caught unaware. He stared, mesmerised, at the red-rimmed eyes which failed to meet his, the drooping mouth and the woebegone little face, and it was as if he could hear every choking sob again. With an effort, he gathered himself and began to speak, feeling dishonest and uncomfortable as he did so.

"Miss Robinson, I gather from my cousin that you are under the mistaken impression that I off--' " Lord d'Arenville, I accept your offer of marriage," she said at the same time.

There was a long, tense moment of silence in the room.

What happens now? wondered Magnus. In all honour, he could not continue with his reluctant pretence that he had made no offer. There was no need--she had accepted him. So that was it. An offer had been made and was accepted. The rest was inevitable. Irrevocable. Ironic, that. She could call the wedding off, but there was no question that he could do the same. Lord d'Arenville was to wed Miss Thalia Robinson. Thalia Robinson, who looked more like a martyr going to the stake than a blus.h.i.+ng bride.

The realisation was like a kick in the teeth. Until this mo's Knight menthe'd half believed that Laet.i.tia was mistaken in saying the girl was going to refuse him. But this miserably bleak acceptance of his offer had convinced him as a thousand explanations could not.

It could not be said that Thalia Robinson actually preferred poverty to himself, but it would be clear to a blind man that it was a d.a.m.ned close race. The girl might be going to her execution, the face she was wearing. Magnus stared at the downcast face, the red-tipped nose, the resolute chin and the trembling lips and felt his anger rising. It had clearly taken a great deal of anguish and resolution for her to decide between abject poverty--or marriage to Lord d'Arenville.

Starvation and misery--or Lord d'Arenville!

The gutter--or Lord d'Arenville!

And finally, by a nose, or a whisker, or a hair's breadth, Lord d'Arenville had won. Lucky Lord d'Arenville!

Lord d'Arenville was furious. He could not trust himself to speak another word to her. He bowed stiffly, turned and stalked out of the room. Tallie watched him leave, blinking in surprise.

"Magnus, what?" -- Laet.i.tia was standing in the hallway, speaking to the vicar. Her voice died as she saw the look on his face.

"You may wish me happy!" he snapped.

"What?"

"She has accepted me." He broke his whip in half and flung the pieces into a corner.

"Oh, Magnus, how dreadf--' " I am ecstatic'. " he snarled.

"The wedding will be in three weeks' time. Make all the arrangements. Spare no expense." He laughed, a harsh, dry laugh.

"Nothing is too good for my bride!" He noticed the vicar, standing there, jaw agape and added, "You, there--Parson. Call the banns, if you please. I will return in three weeks for the ceremony."

He stormed out of the door and headed for the stables. She 1 t.i.t ia trailed after him, pleading with him to slow down, to explain, but to no avail. Lord d'Arenville mounted his horse, and with no warning, no preparations and no baggage, set off for d'Arenville Hall, a good two days' journey away.

Chapter Four.