False Colours Part 9

She smiled. 'Are you ever at a non-plus? That was charmingly said. But let us have no flummery, if you please! And don't be afraid that you will offend me! Tell me the truth!'

'The truth, Miss Stavely, without any flummery, is that the more I see of you the greater becomes my conviction that you are worthy of a better man than I am.'

She wrinkled her brow. 'Is that a civil way of telling me that you would like to cry off?'

'No. It is a way of telling you that you are a darling,' he said, lifting her hand, and lightly kissing it.

The words were spoken before he could check them, and with a sincerity which brought a wave of colour into Cressy's cheeks. He released her hand, thinking: I must take care; and: I have never known a girl like this one. Aloud, he said: 'Are you afraid to walk on the gra.s.s in those thin sandals, or will you let me show you the rose-garden?

It is quite at its best-and I have just caught sight of my young cousin! He will almost certainly join us if we remain here, and I wouldn't for the world expose you to that trial until you have recovered from the fatigue of your journey!'

Her quick flush had faded; she laughed, falling into step beside him. 'Yes, indeed! I dare say we must have come quite thirty miles! Is your cousin so very dreadful?'

'Yes: half flash and half foolis.h.!.+' he said, handing her down the unevenly flagged steps on to the shaven turf. 'We were used-my brother and I-to think him an irreclaimable jackstraw, and accorded him the roughest treatment on the rare occasions when we met him.'

'It seems to me that you still do so!'

'Not at all! I took him out to shoot rabbits this afternoon-my life in my hands!

That's quite enough for one day. Seriously, he's a tiresome youth-what I should describe, if I were talking to one of my own s.e.x, but not, of course, to you, as a s.h.a.gbag.'

She said appreciatively: 'No, of course not! And how would you describe him to me?'

'As a quiz-and b.u.mptious at that! But I'm beginning to think that the fault doesn't lie altogether at his own door. Are you acquainted with his father? my uncle Cosmo?'

She shook her head. 'Ah, then that is another treat in store for you! He is one of mother's brothers, but she seems to suspect that he may be a changeling. Don't be surprised if he asks you what you paid for your gown, and then tells you where you could have had it made up more cheaply!'

She was in a little ripple of amus.e.m.e.nt. 'I won't! You can't think what a relief it is to me to know that you too have relations who put you to the blus.h.!.+ I'm covered with confusion every time I recall that shocking party in Mount Street, with poor dear Cousin Maria putting you out of countenance by saying in a voice to be heard all over London that you were very handsome; and that odious creature, Austin Lucton, trying to b.u.t.tonhole you! My father was vexed to death when he heard that you did buy his horse! Is it a horrid commoner? Papa says that Austin can never judge a horse.'

'Oh, not a commoner!' he answered. 'Just a trifle short of bone! You may see him for yourself: I had him brought down here, and have been hacking him.'

' Not thinking him fit to go in Leicesters.h.i.+re!' she said. 'What can have possessed you to buy him? I fear your reputation will be sadly damaged!'

He chuckled softly. 'No, will it? That's famous!' He read a surprised question in her eyes, and added: 'No, I don't mean that! The truth is that I was obliged to purchase the animal-having kept your cousin waiting such an unconscionable time for my decision.

Do you hunt, Cressy?'

She shook her head. 'No, I'm afraid I don't. I have been out once or twice with Papa, but not in the s.h.i.+res. You, I know, are what Papa calls one of the Tally-ho sort! I hope you won't require me to try to emulate you, for I am very sure I couldn't do so. I like to ride, but I am not an accomplished fencer! To own the truth, I find it very hard to throw my heart over a bullfinch, and I hate drop-fences!'

'Capital!' he said cheerfully. 'For my part, I hate hard-riding females! Of late years, I have had little opportunity-' He caught himself up, and continued smoothly-'of observing the prowess of ladies on the hunting-field!' He stood aside, to allow her to pa.s.s through a rustic arch overhung with trailing crimson ramblers. 'Here, ma'am, we enter into our celebrated rose-garden! Do you like it?'

'Oh, it is beautiful-exquisite!' she exclaimed, standing at gaze for a minute, before moving forward swiftly to inspect more closely a new specimen, just bursting into full flower.

'Tell Newbiggin so-he's our head gardener-and you will have made a slave for life! I should warn you, however, that my dear Mama is firmly convinced that she, and she alone, made this garden! And it is perfectly true that it was she who conceived the notion. She was immersed in plans when I left for Constantinople, but-'

'When you left for Constantinople?' she repeated, looking quickly up at him.

'To visit my brother,' he said glibly.

'Did you do that? How much I envy you!'

'Are you fond of foreign travel?'

'I have never done any-only in books!' she said. 'It was used to be my greatest ambition-to see the world a little-but Papa dislikes foreigners, and I never could persuade him to go even as far as to Paris. You visited your brother in Vienna too, didn't you? I wish you will tell me about it!'

There was no difficulty about this; and as they strolled companionably down the paths that separated the rose-beds Kit soon found that her reading had taught Cressy a great deal. She listened eagerly, interpolating an occasional question; and from time to time Kit paused to break off a particularly fine bloom to give to her. When they made their way back to the house she held quite a bouquet, and said, conscience-stricken: 'If we should meet your gardener now he will become my enemy, not my slave! Tell me, Denville, did your father make the Grand Tour when he was young? Don't you wish you had grown up then, before the war, when it was thought to be part of a young man's education to travel abroad, learning to speak foreign languages, seeing how people live in other countries?'

'Except that if my father's Grand Tour is anything to judge by they went at too early an age, and were hedged about by tutors. As far as I could ever discover from the things my father told me, he went from one large city to another, armed with introductions to the ton, and spent his time between studying with his tutor and attending b.a.l.l.s and routs-which he might as well have done in London!'

She said thoughtfully: 'Yes, but I have a melancholy suspicion that our fathers-and even more our grandfathers-had very little interest in the beauties of nature, and still less in the customs of the people. My own grandfather kept a diary of his Grand Tour, and it is composed almost entirely of great names, and social functions which he attended: I was never more disappointed, when Papa gave it to me to read! For he must have pa.s.sed throughout the grandest scenery, you know!'

'Did he record that he took care to wear lambswool next the skin when travelling over an Alpine pa.s.s?'

She burst into laughter. 'Yes, he did! Oh, dear! How sad that our forebears should have had such opportunities, and should have wasted them so shockingly!'

They had reached the terrace-steps by this time. As they mounted them, Kit said: 'Have you taken Miss Clara Stavely's place in attendance on your grandmama, Cressy?

My mother wasn't perfectly sure if she would be accompanying you, or not.'

'Oh, I'm sorry! I should have told her. Yes, I always go with Grandmama to Worthing at the end of the Season, so that Clara may enjoy what is known in the family as her holiday! In fact, she has gone to fetch and carry for my Aunt Caroline-and will very likely be required to take charge of the children as well, if I know my Aunt Caroline!' She smiled. 'Don't look so shocked! Let me tell you that my Aunt Elizabeth, who is the kindest creature imaginable, was used to think it as abominable as I can see you do that Clara should become a mere drudge. She invited her once to spend the summer in Hertfords.h.i.+re, determined that she should enjoy a holiday of ease and comfort. Clara had nothing to do but be cosseted and amused-and had almost moped herself into a decline (as she later confided to me) when Aunt Eliza summoned her to come instantly to her aid, one of her children having thrown out a rash; her eldest son, my cousin Henry, having taken a toss, and broken his arm; and her housekeeper having been obliged to leave at a moment's notice to succour her ailing mother, who had been laid low with a palsy-stroke. Aunt Eliza told me that Clara packed her trunks in the twinkling of a bedpost, and was on her way to Lincoln while she, and her very attentive children, were still trying to prevail upon her to remain at Stoborough Hall! I collect that there was all to do in Lincoln, and I know how exacting is my Aunt Caroline, but I promise you that when Clara resumed her post beside Grandmama she was wonderfully refreshed!'

He was obliged to laugh at this lively history, but he said, c.o.c.king an eyebrow at her: 'Yes, I too have an aunt who-according to what my mother tells me-derives immense satisfaction from immolating herself on the altar of family duty. But I hope you don't mean to try to bamboozle me into believing that you are of this cut!'

'Not in the least!' she replied. 'Nor do I immolate myself. The worst I have to suffer when I go to Worthing with Grandmama is-is a certain tedium! And even that is alleviated by Grandmama's tongue.' He had opened a door that gave access to the terrace from the house, and she said, pausing before she stepped across the threshold: 'Thank you for my roses! Do you keep country hours at Ravenhurst? Will you desire one of the servants to take me to my room, if you please? It must be time I made myself ready for dinner.'

'We'll find my mother,' he replied. 'She will certainly wish to take you up herself.'

Lady Denville was not far to seek, for she was coming down the stairs as Kit conducted Cressy into the main hall. She was looking a trifle hara.s.sed, but when she saw Cressy her face brightened, and she came quickly down the remaining stairs to fold the girl in a scented embrace. 'Dearest child! I was wondering where you were, for I haven't exchanged above two words with you!'

'I beg your pardon, ma'am! Denville took me to see your rose-garden-and was so kind as to pluck these for me! Aren't they beautiful? The garden too, so charmingly laid out! We have nothing like it at Stavely.'

'It is pretty, isn't it?' agreed her ladys.h.i.+p. 'Such a labour as it was to make it! But I've never regretted it. Cressy, I must warn you that this is the dreariest party! It positively overpowers me to think that I should have invited you to it, poor child! What with my brother, prosing and moralizing in the most boring manner, and Emma growing drabber under one's very eyes, and speaking like a mouse in a cheese, not to mention Ambrose, whom anyone would take for a mere April-squire-'

'You didn't invite me, G.o.dmother!' Cressy interrupted, laughing. 'I know very well I've been foisted on to you! And I defy any party of which you are a member to be dreary!'

'Yes, but I am already feeling excessively low and oppressed,' said her ladys.h.i.+p.

'And I was obliged to tell Norton to set dinner forward, because your grandmama particularly desired me not to expect her to keep late hours. So we shall dine at six, my dear-though why one should dine in daylight merely because one is in the country I have never understood! However, it won't be so very bad, because I have ordered supper at eleven, when I do hope Lady Stavely will have retired!'

'You can't say I didn't warn you that I too have relations who put me to the blush, Cressy!' interpolated Kit.

'Oh, dear!' exclaimed Lady Denville, stricken. 'Well, doesn't it show you how disordered my senses are? Besides, Cressy knows that her grandmama always puts me in a quake!'

'Of course I do!' averred Cressy, her eyes alight with amus.e.m.e.nt. 'Was she very twitty. ma'am? Are you at outs with me for having left her to your management? I do beg your pardon, but I thought you would contrive to smooth down her bristles much more easily if I were not present. I expect you did, too!'

'Well, I don't know that I did that, precisely,' said Lady Denville, considering the matter, 'but I must own that when I took her to her room a few minutes ago she was not so out of reason cross! I don't mean to say that she was in high good-humour, but she very fortunately detected that the colour had faded a little from the brocade I chose for the curtains in the Blue saloon-which I never thought to be thankful for, K-Evelyn!

because I had it sent from Lyons, and the cost put your father all on end. Indeed, I was quite provoked myself when I saw how sadly it had faded! But one never knows when what seems to have been a mistake will turn to good account: it put Lady Stavely in a much better humour when she was able to tell me what a peagoose I had been. Dearest Cressy, I think I should take you to your room immediately, for it won't do to keep your grandmama waiting for her dinner! They tell me you haven't brought your maid, so I will send Rimpton to you-and don't, my love, allow her to put on airs to be interesting! I wonder sometimes why I bear with her-but she is a wonderful dresser!'

Miss Stavely, though in no doubt of Miss Rimpton's skill, declined her condescending offices, saying that Grandmama's Jane would do all for her that was necessary. This was not of a nature to tax the skill of an abigail who was more a nurse than a dresser, for it consisted merely of hooking up a very becoming gown of light orange c.r.a.pe. This was done in the Dowager's room, and under her eye. She accorded the gown a certain measure of approval, but said that the skirt was too narrow, adding the time-honoured observation that she didn't know what the world was coming to, when females tried to make themselves look like hop-poles. Disdaining the modern fas.h.i.+on of high waists and clinging skirts, she was herself attired in a stiff black silk, worn over an underdress embroidered with silver thread. A cap of starched black lace was on her hair: mittens covered her arms; and in one hand she held a fan. Unlike her granddaughter, who wore the lightest of silk sandals, she had chosen from a large collection of outmoded shoes a pair with high heels, and paste buckles. Cressy told her mischievously that the only thing wanting was a patch on her cheek.

'Patches went out of fas.h.i.+on before you were born!' replied the Dowager crus.h.i.+ngly.

'You may go now, Jane. No, give me my cane-the ebony one! Yes, that will do. And tell William to come up directly to support me down those slippery stairs!' She turned to survey Cressy, as the door closed behind the placid attendant. 'And where have you been, miss?' she demanded.

'Walking in the rose-garden with Lord Denville, ma'am,' said Cressy, undismayed by the sharpness of the question.

'H'm!' My lady scrutinized her own rouged countenance in the looking-gla.s.s, picked up a down puff with her twisted fingers, and gave her cheeks a further dusting of powder. 'Never thought to ask if I wanted your company!'

'I knew that you didn't, Grandmama,' responded Cressy, quizzing her intrepidly.

'You told me not to hang about you, unless I wished to fret you to flinders, which, I promise you, I don't! Furthermore, dear ma'am, I couldn't suppose that when you had Lady Denville to take care of you there was the smallest need for me to remain at your side.'

'Amabel Denville is nothing but a pretty widgeon!' declared the Dowager roundly.

'She always was, and she always will be!' She glared at her own reflection, her jaws working. 'One of these days she'll be like me: an old bag of bones! But I'll tell you this, girl! If any of my daughters had possessed a tenth part of her charm I'd have thanked G.o.d for it! Help me out of this chair! I ought to be in my bed, with a basin of gruel, but I'll come down to dinner, and if I feel able for it I'll have a game of backgammon with Cosmo Cliffe afterwards. But I dare say I shan't: I'm too old for all this junketing about the country! I only trust that if I'm carried off you'll remember it was for your sake I came here!'

This malevolent speech did not augur well, nor did the Dowager's mood grow more propitious until the party went in to dinner, when she became very much more mellow.

For this her hosts had Mr Dawlish to thank. Not for nothing did this genius command an extortionate wage: he knew quite as well what to offer a very old lady as how to serve up a grand dinner of two full courses, consisting of half-a-dozen removes and upwards of thirty side dishes. The Dowager, revived by a soup made with fresh peas, allowed herself to be persuaded to try a morsel of turbot; followed this up with several morsels of a delicate fawn, roasted whole, and served with a chevreuil sauce; and ended her repast with a dish of asparagus, cut and delivered by the kitchen-gardener a bare ten minutes before Mr Dawlish was ready to cook it. This was so succulent that she was moved to compliment Kit on his cook. She informed him, in her forthright fas.h.i.+on, that she had eaten too much, and would probably be unable to close her eyes all night; but it was noticeable that when she left the dining-room she did so without a.s.sistance, and with a remarkable diminution of her previous decrepitude.

Although Kit had been willing enough to concede that Cosmo might entertain the Dowager by plying card-games with her, he had been quite unable to picture her enduring with even the appearance of complaisance his aunt's flat plat.i.tudes. Great was his astonishment, therefore, when, following his uncle and cousin into the drawing-room some time later, he found these two ladies seated side by side on the sofa, and engaged in interested converse. Since Lady Denville had had a card-table set up at the far end of the long room, and lost no time in sweeping the three younger members of the party to it, to play, under her aegis, such frivolous games as suggested themselves to her, it was not until he paid his mama a goodnight visit that Kit learned the reason for this sudden and extraordinary friends.h.i.+p. Nothing, declared her ladys.h.i.+p, had ever been more fortunate! Poor Emma, during the course of a very boring anecdote, had let fall a Name, which had instantly made Lady Stavely p.r.i.c.k up her ears. After exhaustive discussion, which had appeared to Lady Denville to range over most of the n.o.ble houses in the country, and a fair proportion of the landed gentry, it had been established, to both ladies' satisfaction, that they were in some way related.

'But pray don't ask me how, dearest!' begged Lady Denville. 'I can't tell you how many cousins, and marriages, and mere connexions were dragged in: you cannot conceive how tedious! But it has led to that terrible old woman's taking a fancy to Emma, and I have every hope that we shall be able to fob her off on to your aunt!'

10.

Lady Denville's hope was to some extent realized. Either because of the remote relations.h.i.+p between herself and Mrs Cliffe, or because the Dowager perceived in that biddable lady an excellent subst.i.tute for her daughter Clara, she chose to honour her with her approval, and lost no time in inducting her into the duties of companion-in-chief. Somewhat to Lady Denville's surprise, Poor Emma was perfectly willing to a.s.sume these. They were not, in fact, as arduous as might have been supposed, since the Dowager never left her bedchamber till noon, and admitted no one into it except her abigail; retired to it two hours before dinner; and spent the evening playing whist, or piquet, or backgammon with such members of the party as she considered to be worthy opponents, or partners. Mrs Cliffe was not numbered amongst these; and until the arrival of Sir Bonamy Ripple, three days after the rest of the guests had a.s.sembled, it was Kit who occupied the fourth place at the whist-table. He was a sound, if not a brilliant player, and once he had grasped the difference between long whist, which the Dowager preferred, and short, to which, as a member of the younger generation, he was accustomed, she had no serious fault to find with him. But as Lady Denville's play was divided between flashes of brilliance, and strange lapses (due, as she unacceptably explained to the Dowager, to her having been thinking of something else at just that moment), it was soon tacitly decided that she and her son should be perpetual partners against the Dowager and Cosmo Cliffe.

Emma's new duties, therefore, consisted merely of bearing the Dowager company during her unoccupied moments, and going with her, every fine afternoon, for a sedate drive round the neighbouring countryside; and as this regimen exactly suited her disposition no one felt her to be an object for compa.s.sion.

Ambrose, still fired with the hope of becoming a notable shot, spent every morning with the head gamekeeper, a longsuffering individual, who confided to Kit that if he succeeded in teaching Mr Ambrose to hit a barn-door at a range of twelve yards it would be more than he bargained for.

This, since Cosmo spent the better part of the day either perusing the London papers in the library, or prowling about the estate, asking shrewd questions of bailiffs and farmers, and reporting detected extravagance to Kit, left Kit with the charge of entertaining Miss Stavely. On sunny days, they rode together, or played at battledore and shuttlec.o.c.k; when it rained they played billiards, or sat in comfortable talk; once, at her request, he took her to the long picture-gallery, regaling her with an irreverent history of his ancestors, many of whose portraits lined the walls. She entered into the spirit of this, and capped with aplomb his top-lofty boast of a recusant priest (in the collateral) with an account of the Stavely who had blotted the escutcheon by having journeyed so far into Dun territory that he had seen nothing for it but to take to the High Toby.

Kit, acknowledging the superior distinction of this anecdote, wished to know if this enterprising scion had succeeded in making his fortune; but Miss Stavely informed him, with what he told her was odious pretension, that it was generally believed that her interesting forebear had perished on the scaffold, under the cognomen of Gentleman d.i.c.k.

'That's good,' he admitted. 'But take a look at old Ginger-hackle here! One of my great-great-uncles, and said to have murdered his first wife. Here she is, beside him!'

'Well,' said Cressy, subjecting the portrait of a languis.h.i.+ng female to a thoughtful scrutiny, 'I shouldn't wonder at it if he did. Anyone can see that she was one of those complaining women, for ever having the vapours, or dissolving into floods of tears. And I have little doubt that that red head of his denotes an uncertain temper.'

But the picture which held Miss Stavely's interest longest was the Hoppner portrait of the Fancot twins, executed when they were schoolboys. 'How very alike you are!'

she remarked, studying more closely than Kit appreciated what was held to have been one of Hoppner's best likenesses. 'There is a difference, when one looks more particularly into it. Your hair is brighter, and your brother is a trifle taller than you are.

Something in the expressions, too ....'

'Do you think so? The seeming difference in height is merely the way in which we were posed, I fancy. As for the expression, the picture was never thought to be one of Hoppner's happier works,' said Kit, ruthlessly sacrificing the deceased artist's reputation, 'Come and look at Lawrence's portrait of my mother!'

She allowed herself to be drawn onward; but she cast another glance at the Hoppner before she left the gallery, and one surrept.i.tious but searching one at Kit's profile. She said nothing, however, either then, or rather later, when the Dowager delivered herself of the opinion that Lord Brumby had wronged his elder nephew.

The Dowager was inclined to be indignant with his lords.h.i.+p. 'Depend upon it, Cressy, he's getting to be spiteful! It's often so with old bachelors. He dotes on the other boy, and is jealous of young Denville in consequence!'

'He said nothing to Papa about Denville that was in the least spiteful, ma'am,'

Cressy ventured to interpolate. 'Indeed, he told Papa that although Denville had been a little wild he believed that nothing more than a-a suitable marriage was wanting to make him-'

'Stuff and nonsense!' exclaimed the Dowager, her eyes snapping. 'Henry Brumby's an old woman, and so I shall tell him! There's nothing of the profligate about the boy, and never was! I dare say he's had his adventures: why not? But I cut my wisdoms long before Brumby cut his, and if he thinks I don't know the signs of a loose-screw he very much mistakes the matter! There ain't one to be seen in Denville-and that you may believe, girl! I like him. Do you?'

This sudden question slightly discomposed Cressy, but upon being adjured to answer it, she said, blus.h.i.+ng a little: 'Yes, I do. Much-much better than I did at the outset. But-'

'But what?' demanded the Dowager, as Cressy hesitated.

Cressy shook her head. 'Nothing, ma'am! That is-no, nothing!'

The Dowager looked narrowly at her, but said, after a moment: 'Early days yet! I don't mean to press you, so I'll say no more. You ain't a simpering miss, so you won't underrate the advantages of this match. You know as well as I do that Denville's a matrimonial prize: time was when I should have thought more of that than I do today.

So was his father, and much good did it do silly little Amabel Cliffe when she caught him!' She sat ruminating for a moment, and then abruptly changed the subject, saying: 'I collect that Bonamy Ripple is coming to join us tomorrow. What a bag-pudding!

However, I shall be glad to see him, for he plays a good game of whist, and knows all the latest on-dit s.' She paused again, before adding, with the utmost reluctance: 'I'll say this for Amabel!-to be able to drag Ripple away from Brighton at this season is something indeed!'

But when Sir Bonamy lowered himself, with the a.s.sistance of two muscular footmen, from his travelling carriage next day no one would have supposed from his demeanour that the smallest force had been necessary to bring him away from the Pavilion to the seclusion of Ravenhurst. Radiating good-humour, he grasped Kit's hand with one of his own pudgy ones, and declared that this was 'something like!' Wheezing only a very little from the exertion of descending from the carriage, he stood looking about him, a not unimposing, if preposterous figure, in the nattiest of country raiment, with a voluminous drab driving coat hanging open from his shoulders, and a s.h.a.ggy, low-crowned beaver set rakishly askew over his curled and pomaded locks. 'Very agreeable!' he p.r.o.nounced. 'Very pleasing prospect! Do you know, my boy, I've never seen it in the summer before? Excellent! just the thing for recruiting nature! I feel as fresh as a nosegay already.'

Kit's eyes twinkled. 'I'm happy to welcome you here, sir!'

Sir Bonamy's little round eyes stared at him for an unwinking moment. 'Much obliged to you! Very prettily said!'

Recalling belatedly that his twin barely tolerated their mama's most devoted admirer, Kit skated smoothly over this, saying: 'But I should warn you that the exigencies of country life may perhaps put you quite out of frame! We dine at six, sir!'

'No need to warn me,' Sir Bonamy said, slowly mounting the shallow steps. 'I know the country habit! But you have a very good cook, and if one partakes of only a morsel by way of a nuncheon one is ready for one's dinner by six o'clock-with a mere snack for supper.'

'Oh, we shall offer you more than a snack!' promised Kit. 'You will certainly need a supporting meal after an evening spent in playing whist with the Dowager Lady Stavely!'

'So that's it, is it?' said Sir Bonamy, pausing at the top of the steps to get his breath back. His large frame was shaken by a chuckle. 'Now I know why you're happy to welcome me! Quite right! quite right! you leave the old lady to me! Ah! '

This last exclamation was evoked by the emergence from the house of his hostess, who gave him both her hands, and an embracing smile, saying: 'Dear Bonamy, I knew I might depend upon you! Infamous to have invited you to such a dreadful party, but I needed you!'

Kissing her hands, and continuing to hold them in his, Sir Bonamy said fondly: 'Now, my pretty-! You know how happy it makes me to hear that! Ay, and you should know I couldn't think any party dreadful which you grace! Anything I can do to oblige you I'll do with alacrity. Just been telling Evelyn to leave Cornelia Stavely to me!'

'Yes, but there is a worse thing!' disclosed her ladys.h.i.+p. 'I know I should have divulged it to you before, but I dared not, for fear you should refuse to come.'