Return To The Whorl Part 33

"I'm . . . I'm lucky."

He was not certain he had heard her correctly, and said, "I beg your pardon?"

"I don't work very well . . . I don't work very well, Patera."

"We all have failings. It's far better to--to have a bad leg or something of the sort than a propensity for evil."

"But my eyes are . . . But my eyes are fine. I can . . . I can see. You said . . . You said so. That's lucky . . . That's lucky, isn't it?"

"Yes, it certainly is. But, Olivine, you've let me get away from the subject again--from the pa.s.sage that the G.o.d--that the Outsider, as I believe--chose for us. There's a colon in it. Do you know what a colon is? Not a semicolon, but a full colon? Two little dots, one above the other?"

She did not answer, and he floundered forward. "A colon is a very strong divider, Olivine, and colons are rarely found in the Writings. I believe--I'm guessing, to be sure, but this is what I believe--that it's intended to separate that pa.s.sage about the stars rolling down the azure sky from the next so that we will understand that they concern two whorls. Blue and this Long Sun Whorl are actually like two little dots themselves, you see, if you think of them from the Outsider's perspective. The higher dot is this whorl, which is farther from the Short Sun; and the lower dot is Blue."

He cleared his throat and searched his memory. "I've shut the book, but I believe I can still quote the pa.s.sage accurately. It was, 'At the voice of Pas wild whirlwinds rise, and clouds and double darkness veil the skies.' Pas himself is a wild whirlwind. That is to say, he's shown that way in art. The oldest representations of him show a swirling storm."

"I didn't know . . . I didn't know that. Is the other one . . . Is the other one--? You don't want me to say his . . . You--"

"Is he depicted as a whirlwind too? Is that what you're asking me?"

She nodded.

"No. But it's quite an intelligent question, now that I come to think about it. Pas is shown as a man with two heads, or a wind; so it's not unreasonable to think that he, who is shown as a man with four faces, might be depicted as a wind as well. He isn't, though. When a writer hesitates to set down his name--which isn't often, since so little has been written about him--he generally draws the sign of addition, a little straight mark with another little mark across it. I suppose that the idea now is that the G.o.d blesses us, though it may originally have been a diagram. Crossroads are a.s.sociated with the G.o.d, as I believe I told you."

"I . . . I see."

"There's an interesting story about another G.o.d as a wind, however, and it may have some bearing on the pa.s.sage in question. A certain man was hoping to have experience of the Outsider. He prayed and prayed, and a violent storm rose. At first he thought that this storm was the G.o.d, and rejoiced and shouted praise; but the storm only became more violent. Rain beat him like hail, and hail like stones. Water poured from the rocks all around, and trees were uprooted. Lightning struck the mountain on which he stood. Soon he grew terrified, and finding a little cave he hid himself and waited for the storm to pa.s.s.

"At last it did, and after it came the sun and a faint wind, a gentle breeze. And that faint wind, that gentle breeze, was the G.o.d whom he had sought."

Olivine did not speak.

"The point of the story, you see, is that Great Pas is not the Outsider. G.o.ds often have several names and more than one personality--I was talking about this with friends not long ago--and it appears that at some time in the past people believed that the Outsider was merely another aspect of Pas. The story I just told you was probably written to show it was not the case.

"Now back to that pa.s.sage. As I said, happenings in this whorl are intended--or so I would guess. Pas will manifest himself more than once, and angrily. 'Wild whirlwinds' are to rise. Notice the plural."

"Will he hurt . . . Will he hurt us?"

"That I cannot say. We have been warned by the Outsider, however, and the Outsider is a G.o.d--indeed, he may be the best and wisest of all the G.o.ds--and thus is certainly a great deal wiser than we. If he didn't believe we needed a warning, I doubt that he would have provided it.

"Now the last, and I will be able to sacrifice this bread for you. 'Clouds and double darkness veil the skies.' In one respect that is very plain. Double darkness must surely refer to the extinguis.h.i.+ng of the Long Sun by night. Night is coming--" He glanced toward the window. "Is already here I ought to say. It may be several days before we see the day again."

"Maybe I'll go back to sleep when you leave . . . Maybe I'll go back to sleep when you leave, Patera."

"That might be wise." His forefinger traced circles on his right cheek. "Clouds? I can't make much of that. It may mean perfectly ordinary clouds, such as we see every day. It may also refer to the G.o.d's veiling the minds of those he intends to destroy. I cannot be sure. 'Skies' presents the greatest puzzle of them all, at least to me. There have been two skies involved in the entire pa.s.sage, as we have seen--the sky of Blue, and ours in this whorl. The plural must, I would think, refer to those two. The whirlwinds, clouds, and double darkness therefore refer not merely to this whorl, the Long Sun Whorl, but to Blue as well. It is dark on Blue each night, but how it can be doubly dark there I cannot imagine. An augur might give us a more exact interpretation, of course; it's a shame that there's no real augur present."

He uncorked the wine bottle. "Don't you have a gla.s.s for this, Olivine? And a knife to cut the bread?"

"I could get them . . . I could get them, but . . ." There was reluctance in the soft, thick voice that went beyond the usual reluctance to speak at all.

"But what? Please tell me."

"Father doesn't like me taking the . . . Father doesn't like me taking the things."

"I see. And you're not sure that Calde Bison even knows you're up here?"

She shook her head.

"Doubtless your father's right. It's better not to risk your being put out of the palace, though it would seem to me that you might make Calde Bison or General Mint a useful servant. Your father instructed you to sleep while he was away?"

She nodded again.

"I met my own father today. It was the first time I'd seen him in many years. I don't believe I told you."

"No, Patera . . ."

He smiled and shook his head. "I was walking up Sun Street, looking for the place where our shop used to be; and he asked whether he could help me. He had seen, I suppose, that I was trying to locate a particular spot."

The s.h.i.+prock walls, washed almost clean by many rains, had been crumbling into the rectangular holes that had been their cellars; cracked s.h.i.+prock steps returned to the parent sand and gravel before the empty doorways. He looked above each that he pa.s.sed for the painted sign he recalled so well: SMOOTHBONE STATIONER SMOOTHBONE STATIONER. It had proved less durable than the soot.

"Maybe I can help you." The pa.s.serby was short and stocky; his baldness exaggerated his high forehead.

"If you knew this area before it burned."

The bald man nodded and pointed. "My place was right over there for years."

"Before the fire, there was a little shop that sold, oh, quills and paper, mostly. Ink, notebooks, and so on. Do you know where that was?"

The bald man pointed as before. "That was mine."

Together, they walked to the spot. "I've been away a long time." The words had almost stuck in his throat.

"The quarter burned," the bald man said.

"I wasn't here then."

"Neither was I, I was way up north fighting Trivigauntis. Did you ever come into my shop in the old days?"

"Yes. Yes, I did."

The bald man moved half a step to his left, seeking a better angle. "Parietal? Was that your name?"

"No." Better, surely better, not to say too much too soon. "You lived here? In the Sun Street Quarter?"

"That's right. I had a wife here and children, four boys and three girls. Our house over on Silver burned too, but they got away. Went outside to one of the round whorls."

"You had a son named Horn, didn't you?" It was harder than ever to speak.

"That's right, my oldest. You knew him?"

"Not as well as I should have."

"He was good boy, a hard worker and brave as Pas's bull." The bald man held out his hand. "If you were a friend of his back then, I'm pleased to meet you. Smoothbone's my name."

They clasped hands. "I am your son Horn, father."

Smoothbone stared and blinked. "No, you're not!"

"My appearance has changed. I know that."

Smoothbone shook his head and took a step backward.

"There was a loose floorboard, right over there. After we closed, you'd pull it up and put our cashbox under it; and put a box of ledgers on top of it."

Smoothbone's mouth had fallen open.

"You didn't want me to know about it, and you were angry when you found out I had spied on you; but you continued to put it there. I know now you did it to show you trusted me, but at the time--" Tears and embraces prevented him from saying more.

When they separated, Smoothbone said, "You're really Horn? You're my son Horn, come back?"

He nodded, and they went down the street to a tavern in a tent, where the bar consisted of a plank laid across two barrels, and there were three tables, three chairs (one broken) and an a.s.sortment of stools and kegs. "You've changed out of all reckoning," Smoothbone said.

"I know. So have you. You were a big man when we went away." Memories came flooding back. "You said I was brave, but I was afraid of you. So was Mother. We all were."

The barman asked, "Wine or beer?" and looked surprised when Smoothbone asked for wine.

"How is she, Horn?"

"Mother? She was well the last time I saw her, but that was some time ago. Oxlip's taking care of her."

"I've married again. I ought to tell you."

For a moment, there was nothing to say.

"I guess you wondered why I didn't come."

He shook his head. "We thought you'd been killed."

"Not me, Horn."

"That's good." He was sick with embarra.s.sment.

"You did all right out there?"

"Well enough. It was difficult, but then it was difficult here too. Difficult for you, I mean; and it would have been difficult for Nettle and me, if we had stayed here. It was no worse there, just different. Our donkey died." He laughed. "I don't know why I said that, but it did. That was the bottom--the worst time we had. After that things got better, but only slowly. Years of hard work. Nothing to eat, sometimes."

Smoothbone nodded. "I know how that is."

"People say there's always fish. I mean on Lizard they say that. We live on Lizard now."

"I never heard of it. Just Blue or Green is what they say."

"It's on Blue--a little island. We have a house there, a house we built ourselves, and a paper mill." Suddenly he smiled. "You have three grandsons. No, more, but the others aren't mine. Mine are Sinew, Hoof, and Hide."

Smoothbone smiled too. "This is Nettle? Nettle's sprats?"

"That's right. We married. We'd always planned to, and old Patera Remora married us there a few days after the lander put down. Do you remember Patera Remora, Father?"

"Remora?" Smoothbone tugged an earlobe reflectively. "It was Pike. Patera Pike. Then Silk, that was calde after."

He nodded.

"We went to sacrifice with him, I suppose it must have been three or four times."

"More than that."

"You and your mother, maybe." Smoothbone drained his gla.s.s. "More wine, son?"

"No, thank you." His gla.s.s was half full.

"I'll have another." Smoothbone signaled the barman. "You know, I ought to have written all that down. I wish I had."

"On Blue, I wrote a history of Silk. Nettle and I did, I ought to say."

"Did you now!"

"Yes, Father. Nearly a thousand pages."

"I'd like to see it. My eyes aren't what they were when I was shooting Trivigauntis, but I can still read with a lens. Were you wanting to get paper and pens at our old shop, son?"

He shook his head. "I simply wanted to see it. To stand there for a little while and remember." He paused, considering. "Now that I know just where it was, I'm going to go back there and do it. It may be the only chance I'll ever have."

"Will you now?" The barman brought the wine; Smoothbone paid as before. "If you want something, I could take you to the new place. I'll give you just about anything you want there."

"No, thank you."

"Box of pencils? Pen case, maybe, with a little paper to put in it?"

"That would be nice. You're very kind to me, Father. You were always very kind to me--I'll never be able to thank you enough for all that you did to teach me our trade--but no, I couldn't impose upon you like that."

"Sure now?"

"Yes. I don't need those things, and I wouldn't feel right if I accepted them."

"Well, if you change your mind you just let me know." Smoothbone rose. "I've got to--you know. Excuse me minute?"