The Stranger's Child Part 29

JT:.

I think he met him at college. I don't know much about that.

PB:.

You didn't mix much with the Sawle children yourself?

JT:.

Good grief, no! (laughs wheezily) No, no, it wasn't like that at all.

PB:.

Did you know Daphne was (inaudible) with Cecil?

JT:.

Well, I don't recall. We didn't know about that.

PB:.

(pauses) What hours did you work, do you remember?

JT:.

Well, I do, I worked six till six, I remember that very well.

PB:.

But you didn't sleep at the house?

JT:.

I went back home. Then up every morning at five! We didn't mind it, you know! [And here Jonah had gone on, with what seemed to Paul like relief, to a detailed description of a servant's day a day in which the princ.i.p.al figures in Paul's story were oddly seen as mere ineffectual walk-ons.]

When Jonah got out his photo alb.u.m the taped record became too cryptic altogether for Karen. Paul listened, fast-forwarded for ten seconds, cut in again murmurs, grunts and rueful laughs like the sounds of some intimacy from which he was now bizarrely excluded. He had stooped over Jonah in his armchair, staying his hand sometimes as he turned the pages. It was a shared task, each of them somehow guiding the other, Jonah still puzzled and touchy about the undue interest Paul was taking in it all. 'Well, there's not much to it,' he said, which was true in a way, though as always the 'not much' stared out like a provocation. Those old snapshots, two inches by three the few Paul had seen of himself as a child were almost as small. Jonah hovered over them and partly concealed them with the oblong magnifying gla.s.s he used for reading the paper, the miniature faces swelling and darting as he muttered comments on one or two of them. There was a group photo of the staff at 'Two Acres', it must be just before the War, Jonah grinning in a work-coat b.u.t.toned at the neck, standing between two taller maids in caps and ap.r.o.ns, with a huge-bosomed woman behind them, who sure enough was the cook; Paul really didn't recognize the door and window behind, but Jonah was unmistakeable, and so glowingly pretty that the older Jonah seemed to grow self-conscious on his behalf; at sixteen he had a look of being happy in his place as well as slyly curious about what lay outside it. Then there were several of the family. 'So that was their mother? May I?' Paul said steadying the gla.s.s: a st.u.r.dy-looking woman with a wide appealing face and the guesswork smile that went with shortsightedness. He saw a lot of Daphne in her, not the teenager of the photos but Daphne as he knew her, older than her mother had been then. 'Freda looks very nice.' 'Yes, well,' said Jonah, 'she was all right,' though now her weakness, as he had called it, seemed to swim to the surface under the lens Hubert Sawle, balding and responsible, standing next to her, surely knew about it too. They had the indefinable air of figures in an ongoing crisis, which their smiles didn't quite expect to conceal. 'What about George? ah, yes, that must be him.' George played up to the camera, pointing at Daphne, or posing just behind her with a silly face. Daphne herself had the vulnerable look of a girl hoping to get away for longer than five minutes with the pretence of being grown-up. She sat smiling graciously under a large hat with a silk flower on the side. Then George crept up, like a villain in a silent film, and made her jump. 'Now is that . . . ? I've got an idea,' said Jonah, and let Paul take the gla.s.s again and square it over the cornermost snap two young men almost level with the ground in deckchairs, George in a boater, the other's face cast in primitive photographic shadow by the brim of his hat, save for a gleam of a nose and a smile. 'That's your young man, I think, isn't it?' said Jonah really it could have been anybody, but Paul said, 'Yes, of course it is . . . !' and when he had done so he tingled at the certainty that it was.

He hadn't expected Jonah to have such a h.o.a.rd; it seemed the mysterious but omnipresent Harry Hewitt had given Hubert a camera, and Hubert had kept on dutifully taking snapshots and presenting them to all and sundry. Jonah showed him a photograph of the two men together; under the gla.s.s his square brown fingers half-hid what he was pointing out. 'I see . . . yes . . .' Hubert was quite different here, peeping at the camera, a cigarette held uncertainly just by his trouser-pocket, while beside him, with an arm round his shoulder, as if escorting him towards some challenge he had been shyly avoiding, stood a darker, rather older man, very smartly dressed, with a long gaunt face, large ears, and a wide moustache drawn out into uncertain points. 'So that was the man you worked for after the War . . .' There was something so evidently gay about the photograph that the question sounded insinuating to himself, and perhaps to Jonah too. Later on he found the place in the transcript where he'd come back to questions about Hewitt.

JT:.

Mr Hewitt was a friend of the Sawles. He was a great friend of Mr Hubert. So I knew him already, in a way. He'd always been kind to me. He lived in Harrow Weald (unclear: Paddocks?) PB:.

I'm sorry?

JT:.

That's what his house was called.

PB:.

Oh!

JT:.

Well, it's an old folks' home now. The old dears are in there! (chuckles wheezily) PB:.

Right. A big house, then.

JT:.

He was an art collector, wasn't he, Harry Hewitt. I believe he left it all to a museum, would it be the Victoria and Albert Museum?

PB:.

He didn't have children?

JT:.

Ooh no, no. He was a bachelor gentleman. He was always very generous to me.

Then, over the page, Jonah had changed his servant's coat for lumpy serge and a too-large peaked cap, and in a line of recruits all taller than himself looked even younger than he had two years before, the smile of curiosity now a crooked look of childish worry. Paul straightened up, gazed down abstractedly for a minute at the neat old man with the alb.u.m on his knee; then bent down again into his sharp clean odour of shaving-soap and hair-tonic.

In a minute, Jonah had to go to the loo, which was upstairs, and with his new hip was likely to take him a while. When he was safely halfway up, Paul stopped the tape, mooched across the room, glanced amiably through the window at the front garden and the lane, then lifted the paperweight from the folder on the table by Jonah's chair, looked over his own letter again with interest, as it were from the recipient's point of view, and with one finger raised the cardboard cover. Some brittle and sun-browned newspaper cuttings, words lost at the corners and folds, brown envelopes rubbed and softened with use. These must be Jonah's demob papers. Then a prize certificate for carnations that he'd won in 1965. Then there was a folded review of a school play. A photograph from the local paper of what must be Gillian's wedding. It struck him poor Jonah didn't have enough treasures for separate folders everything precious must be in here together. Paul leafed through the papers in loose groups. It was all just family stuff, of the most routine kind, very distant and pathetic, but put here ready perhaps, in the belief the interview was to be about Jonah's own life. Then laying it all back again, and having a last look as he did so, Paul saw a large brown envelope addressed to Hubert Sawle Esq., 'Two Acres', the address struck through in ink: he lifted it out with a sudden heaviness of heart. Peering into it quickly but intently, half-pulling out the top two or three sheets, he saw letters, one signed H. O. Sawle, so perhaps these were just Jonah's sc.r.a.ps and memorabilia from that time. 'Wis.h.i.+ng you good luck!' May 1915 . . . in large backward-leaning writing. And then under it he found himself staring, in a sudden accusing rush of colour to his face, at a quite different hand, the hand he was only starting to know apart from all others, like the hand of a new lover. A tiny envelope, addressed to Pte J. Trickett, at the Middles.e.x Regiment barracks in Mill Hill. The large black postmark was smudged, but the year stood out, '1916'. Setting down the other papers, he was about to open it when he saw with astonishment that he had turned over something else in Cecil's writing, several sheets of paper, torn in half, and covered in densely written and corrected verse. His fingers were trembling as he lifted the first one, which seemed to oscillate under his eyes like something out of focus. He knew it and he didn't know it. He knew it so well that he couldn't think what it was, and then when he understood he found it wasn't what he knew. 'Hearty, l.u.s.ty, true and bold . . .' The lavatory upstairs flushed, a sequence of muted sighs and whines spread through the plumbing system of the house; then he heard Jonah's careful but not unduly slow tread coming down. It was a teetering five seconds of bewildered indecision. He squared up the papers, closed the folder, and set the paperweight back on top, calling up his mental photograph of how it had been before he touched it; he was completely confident it looked just as it had even the paperweight was the right way round; but when Jonah came back in his eye seemed to go straight to it, and Paul wondered if the final impression wasn't so meticulously accurate as to be in some way unconvincing.

Later on, listening to the tapes, so m.u.f.fled and unprofessional, and leafing back and forth through the embarra.s.sing half-clarification of the transcript, Paul had a growing gnawing sense that he'd already lost something of great value, though he wasn't quite sure how he'd done so, or even what it was. Did Jonah know more than he said about Cecil's friends.h.i.+p with George? It was natural enough that he wouldn't say, perhaps wouldn't know how to say; and though he didn't seem to have much patience for George, or Daphne either, he was hardly going to go on record with the sort of claim Paul was hoping for about people who were still alive, whom he hadn't seen for sixty-five years . . . Obscurely related there was the matter of Cecil's ma.s.sive tip, more than a month's wages, and doubled on his second visit. Why had he done that? Because he knew he had been a 'horror', perhaps though what did that word really mean? And why did Jonah remember that, and almost nothing else? Paul wondered if Cecil had bought his silence about something perhaps so effectively that he had indeed entirely forgotten it. Or was that the matter he had written to him about, at the Mill Hill barracks? Paul felt sick that he hadn't simply taken that letter. Why on earth would an aristocratic young officer be writing to a private in another regiment? It was striking enough that Cecil had even mentioned Jonah to Freda Paul knew from other such letters he'd read that upper-cla.s.s people never mentioned servants, unless it was some figure of great age and eccentric dignity, like a butler or old nanny. And then what seemed to be a ma.n.u.script of 'Two Acres' itself, glimpsed like something in a dream and, at a glimpse, full of dreamlike variants.

The mortifying thing, as Paul had packed up his tape-recorder, put on his coat and been followed to the front door, was the lingering presence in the air, and in his own tight smile, of Jonah's rebuff his wheezy, regretful head-shake of insistence that no, he had no letter, nothing written by Cecil Valance at all; so that Paul had been trapped, in the moment he was leaving, in a kind of impa.s.se. He must have looked s.h.i.+fty, even coyly wounded some new narrowing of suspicion and rejection had seemed to enter Jonah's blue eyes. Paul didn't tell Karen any of this, but it had made the long journey back to Tooting Graveney more uncomfortable than the journey out.

5.

'Shove?'

'Mmm?'

'Fredegond Shove.'

'Oh, yes! . . . um . . .'

'It's the Collected Poems.'

'Aha . . .'

'Or . . . wait a minute, what about this . . .' he handed Paul a precious-looking volume, in a black slipcase: A Funny Kind of Friends.h.i.+p: Letters of Sir Henry Newbolt to Sebastian Stokes. 'Interest you at all?'

'Well, actually . . .'. It just might be interesting, for his own research; and anything he took away could be sold, sooner or later.

'Private press, we don't have to do it.'

Paul balanced the stack of books he'd already chosen on the edge of a table scattered with sugar and ground coffee. Here the reek of Gitanes smoke was laced with that of sour milk. In cracked old mugs with comic logos, bluish crusts of mould were forming. The books table itself, ten volumes deep, had a broken leg propped up on other books that presumably would never be reviewed. The squalor was remarkable, but no one who worked here young men in olive-green corduroy, good-looking women chatting on the phone about Yeats or Poussin appeared to notice it. They sat in their low cubicles, walled in by rubbish, books and boxes, half-eaten meals, old clothes, and great slews of scrawled-over galley-proofs.

'So gay things,' said Jake, rubbing his hands.

'That's right!' said Paul, and was furious to find himself blus.h.i.+ng.

'We get quite a lot of those these days . . .' Jake wore a wedding-ring, but he seemed very glad for Paul to be gay. He was the same age, younger perhaps, clearly proud of working at the TLS, and cheerfully corporate 'we do this', 'we had that'. Paul imagined sharing his cubicle, high up above the traffic, deciding the fate of books together. 'Bloomsbury, I suppose . . . ?'

'Bloomsbury . . . First World War.' Paul saw a promising mauve cover deep down, gay books keeping generally to that end of the spectrum, but when he dug it out it was a survey of historic thimbles, which wasn't quite gay enough. 'I think there's a new volume of Virginia Woolf's Letters coming up . . .'

'Ah,' said Jake, 'yes, that's gone, I'm afraid Norman's doing it.'

'Ah, well . . .' Paul flinched and nodded, as if at the evident justice of this commission, and wondered who the h.e.l.l Norman could be; he felt Norman wasn't his surname. So far Paul had had only two things in the paper, both very cut, and very far back, almost in the Cla.s.sified section: a piece about Drink-water's plays, and a regretful demolition of a novel by the retired diplomat Cedric Burrell. This caused a bit of a stir, as Burrell had immediately cancelled his subscription to the TLS, which he'd had since going up to Oxford in 1923. But no one seemed to mind, they were even rather pleased, and Jake had asked him to drop in and 'look at the books', if he was ever around. Paul let a day and a half pa.s.s before turning up.

'Remind me what you're working on?'

'I'm writing a biography of Cecil Valance,' said Paul firmly, and the claim sounded foolishly bold in this new setting. But one day, no doubt, his book would appear on the table in front of him. Someone would ask to do it. Maybe Norman would get a crack at it.

'That's right, "Two blessed acres of English ground".'

'Among other things . . .'

'Didn't we have something on him recently?'

'Oh, well the Letters, perhaps? That was a couple of years ago now . . .'

'That must be it. So he was gay too, was he?'

'Again . . . among other things.'

Again Jake was delighted. 'They all were, weren't they?' he said.

Paul felt he should be a bit more cautious: 'I mean, he did have affairs with women, but I have the feeling he really preferred boys. That's one of the things I want to find out.'

An older man, in his fifties perhaps, with oiled black hair and a paisley bow-tie, had emerged from his cubicle to get coffee, and stayed looking at the new books and looking at Paul too, over his half-moon gla.s.ses, with a certain air of strategy. Jake said, 'Robin, this is Paul Bryant, who's been doing some things for us. Robin Gray.'

'Ah, yes,' said Robin Gray, in a friendly patrician tone, tucking his chin in. He had the blue eyes of a schoolboy in the face of a don or a judge.

'Paul's writing about Cecil Valance, you know, the poet.'

'Yes, indeed.' Robin glanced to left and right, as if at the enjoyable delicacy of the matter. 'Indeed, I had heard . . .'

'Oh, really?' said Paul, smiling back, and feeling suddenly uneasy. 'Goodness!'

Robin said, 'I believe you b.u.mped into Daphne Jacobs.' And now he scratched his head, with an air almost of embarra.s.sment.

'Oh, yes . . .' said Paul.

'And who might Daphne Jacobs be?' said Jake. 'One of your golden oldies, Robin?'

Robin gave a curt laugh while still holding Paul's eye. Paul felt he shouldn't answer the question for him. He half-wondered himself what the answer would be. 'Well,' said Robin, 'she is now the widowed Mrs Basil Jacobs, but once upon a time she was Lady Valance.'

'Don't tell me she was married to Cecil,' said Jake.

'Cecil!' said Robin, as if Jake had a lot to learn. 'No, no. She was the first wife of Cecil's younger brother Dudley.'

'I should explain, Robin knows everyone,' said Jake, but just then he was called to the phone at the far end of the office, leaving the two of them in their unexpected new relation. They went into the semi-privacy of Robin's cubicle, where he set down his coffee on the desk; unlike the others he kept a china cup and saucer, and there was a degree of order in the books, a parade of Loeb cla.s.sics, archaeology, ancient history. On the radiator a brown towel and swimming-trunks were spread out to dry. There was a strong sense of a bachelor life, of rigorous routine. Robin s.h.i.+fted papers from a second chair. 'I'm the ancient history editor,' he said, 'which everyone thinks is very apt.' Paul smiled cautiously as he sat down; beside him was a shelf of Debrett's and Who's Who, and those eerily useful volumes of Who Was Who, giving the hobbies and phone-numbers of the long dead. Late one night he and Karen had rung Sebastian Stokes himself: a moment's silence and then the busily negative drone of non-existence. Of course you had to convert the old exchanges to the new numbers they might have got it wrong. 'Don't lean back in that chair, by the way, or you'll land on the floor.'

'I was a bit worried about . . . Daphne,' Paul said, sitting forward, making his own thoughtful claim on knowing her. 'No one seemed to be looking after her.'

'I'm sure you were kind to her,' said Robin, a touch cautiously.

'Well, I didn't do much . . . you know . . . Have you known her a long time?'

Robin stared and grunted as if at the effort it would take to explain properly, and at last said, very slowly, 'Daphne's second husband's half-sister married my father's elder brother.'

'Right . . . right! . . . so . . .' Paul gazed at the world beyond the dirty window, the top floor of a pub across the Gray's Inn Road.

'So Daphne is my step-aunt by marriage.'

'Exactly,' said Paul. 'Well I'm very glad to meet you. You see, I'm hoping to interview her, but she hasn't replied to a letter I sent her in November, which is three months ago now . . .'

'Well, you know she's been ill,' said Robin, tucking his chin in again.

Paul winced. 'I was afraid that might be the reason.'

'She has this macular problem.'

'Oh, yes?'

'It means she can't really see her sight's very bad. And as you may know she also has emphysema.'

'Doesn't that come from smoking?'

'I fear they both do,' said Robin, with a sigh at his own ashtray.

'Is she getting better?'

'Well, I'm not sure one ever really gets better.'

Paul had a sickening feeling she might smoke herself to death before he'd had a chance to speak to her. 'I was surprised to see she still smoked, after Corinna . . . you know.'