I Refuse to Become Scumbag in Tokyo Chapter 106: Then I'll help you

Chapter 106: Then I'll help you

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o then stood up, taking off his track pants, showing his boxer to s.h.i.+na, but unlike the normal harem protagonist or Sorata on the story, where they were quite flat on their nether region, when he showed his boxer to s.h.i.+na, there was a huge bulge that couldn't be hidden there, and let him remind everyone who read the chapter that he wasn't hard and his d.i.c.k was at a soft state at this moment.

Even though s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was an adolescent boy and he was at p.u.b.erty, which caused his hormones to be very hard to control, it was hard to treat s.h.i.+na as a girl, especially when her expression was so pure, staring at him like a pure angel. He felt that if he showed a reaction then he would be a sinner, which was why he tried very hard to control himself.

After he took off his pants, s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o looked at s.h.i.+na's reaction and felt a bit surprised when he saw her in a daze, staring at his lower body. "Have you seen enough?" He was full of a tease when he asked this question.

s.h.i.+na wasn't sure, but she felt that her face was very hot and she somehow understood the difference between a male and a female, and at the same time, she also understood that s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o's body was exceptionally good. She didn't ask about the big bulge on his boxer, after all, even though she didn't have common sense, it didn't mean she was stupid and she also understood some difference between a male and a female, but...

"s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o, did you get hard?" s.h.i.+na asked since she felt that the bulge was quite big.

"...." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was speechless and somehow understood her question. He shook his head and said, "No, I don't get hard."

"But I have heard that boys will get big when they're excited," s.h.i.+na asked.

"Well, mine is big, even though it isn't hard," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said simply, and at the same time, he wanted to know where this girl learned that kind of knowledge before.

"....." s.h.i.+na blinked her eyes and somehow felt quite confused.

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o sighed and said, "You should know that among girls there are some who have a big and a small chest, boys are also like that, some of them have a small d.i.c.k and some of them have a big d.i.c.k." He felt that he needed to be straightforward when he talked with s.h.i.+na, after all, this girl still lacked some knowledge so he couldn't explain in a more polite way since she might not understand him, but somehow he really wanted to beat himself up when he explained all of that to her.

s.h.i.+na nodded and understood, after all, she also understood that some girls had a big chest, and some girls had a small chest, but she didn't expect for a guy to be the same, but no one could blame her, after all, unlike girl's chest that could be easily seen through clothes, a guy's d.i.c.k was hidden on their pants.

"So is this enough?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o asked again since he wanted to wear his clothes again, after all, even though it was spring, it was still very cold for him.

"Can you lay on your bed?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"????" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o raised a question mark on the top of his head, but he nodded and laid on his bed.

s.h.i.+na then, without hesitation, followed s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o and was about to straddle his waist, but his reaction was very fast, and he quickly stopped her by holding her waist before her b.u.t.ts touched his nether region. Even though he had said that he couldn't treat this girl like a girl, she was still a beautiful girl, and if she really sat in his nether region...

"What are you doing?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o quickly asked and there was sweat on his forehead since he was a bit overwhelmed at that moment.

s.h.i.+na didn't answer s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o's question immediately, after all, when he held her waist, she felt that there was a jolt of electricity that ran through her entire body. She looked at his hands that were on her waist, holding her, trying to stop her, which caused her to ask, "Your hands."

"You can't sit on my waist," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said and put this girl on his bed. With his strength, it was very for him to carry this girl, after all, s.h.i.+na was quite thin.

"Why?" s.h.i.+na asked with a confused expression.

"My d.i.c.k might get hard," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said with a blush. He knew that he couldn't lie and needed to be straightforward, but still, he felt embarra.s.sed. He also let out a long sigh, wondering why he needed to say something like this.

"I don't mind," s.h.i.+na said and thought that s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was quite cute when he blushed.

"....."

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o wanted to say something but closed his mouth again. In truth, he wanted to say that there was a monster that was sleeping inside his boxer at that moment and if s.h.i.+na wasn't careful, then she might be eaten, but he knew that he couldn't say that. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself, then stared at s.h.i.+na. "Mas.h.i.+ro, you should remember that you shouldn't say that. I know that you might have a good opinion of me and I also care about you, but you also need to know that we have only met each other for the past few days, our meeting is too short so you shouldn't believe in me so easily. I'm also a man and you're a charming girl, if you keep tempting me, then we might do something that we might regret in the future."

"Will s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o attack me?" s.h.i.+na asked while looking at s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o's face.

"...." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was lost for words and shook his head. "No, I'm just telling the fact that you're a charming girl, and you should be careful around boys."

s.h.i.+na nodded and said, "I'll only do this with s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o."

"......." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o simply gave up. "Just be quick, alright?" He might not be able to control himself if s.h.i.+na sat on his nether region so he moved her to his stomach. He could feel her soft b.u.t.ts which made him raise his eyebrow and knew that his will was being tested at this moment.

"Um." s.h.i.+na nodded and sat on his stomach while watching from above. She touched s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o's body again and said, "Your body is very good, s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o."

"Hmm..." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o twitched in the corner of his mouth and stopped s.h.i.+na's hand that was about to touch his nipple again. She tried to touch his nipple again, but he stopped her again, so she simply gave up.

"Did you do any sport?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"I do Bajiquan," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said simply.

"Bajiquan?" s.h.i.+na t.i.tled her head.

"It's a martial art from China." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o didn't seem surprised by s.h.i.+na's reaction, after all, this martial art was quite uncommon.

s.h.i.+na nodded and asked, "Why did you learn it?"

"So I can become strong," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said.

"Why do you want to become strong?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"So I can protect my loved one better," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said with a light smile.

"..." s.h.i.+na stared at s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o for a while then asked, "Then are you still learning?"

"No, I have stopped," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said while shaking his head.

"Why?" s.h.i.+na was confused at why s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o stopped.

"It's like you, who have decided to become better at your painting by drawing a manga." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o gave a light smile and said, "I'm also the same. I feel that I can't get strong enough just by practicing bajiquan."

s.h.i.+na was surprised but nodded in understanding. "Are you going to learn another martial art?"

"Yes, after all, Bajiquan isn't a perfect martial art and it has a weakness too, so I'm going to learn a martial art that can complement this martial art," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said. Even though he said that he didn't intend to learn another martial art, rather he wanted to fight someone strong, so he could become stronger, but there was no way he could say that to s.h.i.+na, right?

s.h.i.+na nodded, then after she touched his body, she looked at him and called out his name. "s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o."

"Hmm?"

"Can you hold me?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"...." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o stared at s.h.i.+na for a while, opened his arms, and said, "Move closer."

"Um." s.h.i.+na nodded and felt his strong arms gently wrapped around her body. She felt that her heart was beating very fast and her body was very hot, but she might feel addicted to it. "Tighter." She could feel that the force around his arms became tighter, that it might be hard for her to breathe, but even so, she didn't want him to stop and wanted this to continue. She looked up at him and saw that s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o just happened to look at her eyes. "s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o..." She called his name softly and looked at him with blurred eyes as if she was drunk at this moment.

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o quickly woke up when he heard his name being called. He quickly let go of his arms and said, "Let's stop here." He then quickly separated from her, turned around, and tried to calm his state since he knew that he might do something that couldn't be undone if he didn't stop.

s.h.i.+na felt a slight loss when s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o let her go, but at the same time, she understood why he said that his thing was big since she caught a glimpse of his hard thing which somehow made her feel her body was burning. She looked at his back and called out his name again. "s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o."

"Hmm?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was quite wary since he was afraid this girl might ask him some strange request again.

"Have you ever had s.e.x?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"......"

s.h.i.+na didn't receive an answer from s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o, but she wasn't sure why it made her heart feel tight. "Have you?"

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o turned around and nodded. "I have." He felt that he couldn't lie to this girl.

s.h.i.+na lowered her head and asked, "...With your girlfriend?"

"No, I don't have a girlfriend," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said while shaking his head.

s.h.i.+na looked up and asked, "With who?"

"A girl." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o looked out the window and somehow his chest tightened when he remembered that day. "Anyway, you should go back now. It's very troublesome to explain to someone why you're in my room tonight." He then wore his clothes again, with his back facing s.h.i.+na, but then he heard her voice again.

"s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o."

"Hmm?"

"Let's have s.e.x."

"...." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o frowned then turned his head, looking at s.h.i.+na who was staring at him. He then walked toward her, then flicked her forehead without hesitation.

"Ouch!" s.h.i.+na held her forehead and cried a bit, staring at s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o in grief. "It hurts."

"Just bear with it, it's still better than the regret that you feel if you really have s.e.x with me." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o then squatted down, then raised his head slightly, looking at s.h.i.+na's eyes while holding both of her hands tenderly. "Mas.h.i.+ro, please promise me that you shouldn't say something like that so lightly."

"Why? You have done it with a girl, but why don't you do it with me?" s.h.i.+na asked like a child that wasn't allowed to play a game by their parents.

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o let out a sigh then asked, "Mas.h.i.+ro, do you understand what love is?"

"Love?" s.h.i.+na wanted to nod, but she shook her head, but then she frowned. She might understand, but she didn't fully understand what love was.

"What you're doing right now is just an impulse." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o felt that regret so he didn't want s.h.i.+na to feel the same feeling that he felt. "When someone has s.e.x with each other, they need to feel in love with each other first. As for now, I'm not sure whether what you feel toward me is love, impulse, l.u.s.t, or another feeling, after all, we have only met each other for few days, but one thing for sure, we can't have s.e.x now."

"When can we have s.e.x?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"....." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was dumbfounded and asked, "Do you love me?"

s.h.i.+na thought for a while and nodded. "I might be."

"Might?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o raised his eyebrow.

"I don't understand my feelings very well, but I know that I want to be with you," s.h.i.+na said softly.

"...." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o wasn't sure what to say since he didn't feel the same feeling toward s.h.i.+na.

"s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o, what about you? Do you love me?" s.h.i.+na asked softly, but her tone was slightly tense.

"....." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o knew that it might sound cruel, but he couldn't be indecisive and said, "I don't love you, but I care about you." If he didn't care about s.h.i.+na, then he wouldn't stop her from contacting Sorata, after all, he didn't want to be dragged down by that sc.u.mbag, but for love? He felt that it was too early and he couldn't say something like that to a girl that he had only met for a while.

"....." s.h.i.+na didn't understand, but she felt her heart was hurt that it made her want to run, but when she looked at him, she felt quite unwilling and decided to ask him again, "Then... do you love someone else?" She wanted to know who was the person that had made him fall in love.

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o hesitated, but when he saw s.h.i.+na's pure eyes that were mixed with some sadness, he then said, "I might not be able to fall in love with someone now."

"Why?" s.h.i.+na asked again softly, wanting to understand him better.

"I have to say goodbye to someone properly and before that, I don't have any intention to fall for someone right now," s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o said, after all, even though he had said that he wanted to have a girlfriend or he didn't want to let go both Nana and Miu, he didn't have an intention to do both of them right away. He still couldn't let go of his past, clinging, remembering his days with his girlfriend, family, and friends in his previous life. It might sound pathetic, but he couldn't throw away and forget his memories from his previous life so he could live happily in his new life, right?

"Then I'll help you. I'll help you to say goodbye properly," s.h.i.+na said while looking at s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o, then patted his head, feeling that it might make him better, after all, she felt better when he patted her head so he would feel the same, right?

Patting his head, s.h.i.+na could see some sadness in his eyes and she didn't want to see him sad. She also didn't know why, but when she heard his reason, there was some relief and light appeared once again in her eyes.

"..." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was in silence, staring at s.h.i.+na's eyes who also stared at him without, looking away, and all he could see that she really wanted to help him. He then smiled gently and said, "You should go back now. I want to sleep." He felt that he might not be able to control his emotion if she stayed here any longer.

s.h.i.+na nodded and took her drawing book and pencil, then walked out from his room, but before she went out, she stood in front of the entrance of his room.

"What's wrong? Did you forget something?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o asked.

"Kiss," s.h.i.+na said.

"...Kiss?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was lost for words.

"Rita has always kissed me on the forehead before I go to sleep," s.h.i.+na said.

"...You want me to do that?" s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o asked inexplicably.

"Um." s.h.i.+na nodded and asked, "Can you?"

"....." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o raised his eyebrow, twitched his lips, and let out a sigh. "Rita that you mentioned before is a girl, right?"

"Um, she's a girl." s.h.i.+na nodded.

"I'm a boy." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was lost for words.

"I don't mind," s.h.i.+na said.

"......"

"Can you?" s.h.i.+na asked.

"Come closer." s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o gave up, feeling that he was facing a little girl, rather than a normal girl.

s.h.i.+na nodded with a slight smile in her eyes as if she had won something then without hesitation she moved closer.

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o was just right at the entrance of his door, his hand lifted s.h.i.+na's bangs gently, lowered his head, then kissed her forehead. He then patted her head for the last time, then said, "Good night."

s.h.i.+na touched her forehead that was kissed by s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o. She wasn't sure why, but she felt very warm, shy, and various mixed emotions, but one thing for sure, she didn't hate this feeling. She gave him a smile and said, "Good night."

s.h.i.+s.h.i.+o looked at s.h.i.+na's smile and couldn't look away, then he watched her slowly disappear from his sight then touched his face, wondering why he had done all of that before, after all, even though she was like a little girl, they were the same age. He let out a long sigh and felt quite complex. He shook his head and decided to sleep since somehow, he wanted to calm himself now since he knew that he had become a full-fledge sc.u.mbag.