The Legion of Lazarus Part 1

The Legion of Lazarus.

by Edmond Hamilton.

[Sidenote: Being expelled from an air lock into deep s.p.a.ce was the legal method of execution. But it was also the only way a man could qualify for--The Legion Of Lazarus]

_It isn't the dying itself. It's what comes before. The waiting, alone in a room without windows, trying to think. The opening of the door, the voices of the men who are going with you but not all the way, the walk down the corridor to the airlock room, the faces of the men, closed and impersonal. They do not enjoy this. Neither do they shrink from it. It's their job._

_This is the room. It is small and it has a window. Outside there is no friendly sky, no clouds. There is s.p.a.ce, and there is the huge red circle of Mars filling the sky, looking down like an enormous eye upon this tiny moon. But you do not look up. You look out._

_There are men out there. They are quite naked. They sleep upon the barren plain, drowsing in a timeless ocean. Their bodies are white as ivory and their hair is loose across their faces. Some of them seem to smile. They lie, and sleep, and the great red eye looks at them forever as they are borne around it._

"_It isn't so bad," says one of the men who are with you inside this ultimate room. "Fifty years from now, the rest of us will all be old, or dead._"

_It is small comfort._

_The one garment you have worn is taken from you and the lock door opens, and the fear that cannot possibly become greater does become greater, and then suddenly that terrible crescendo is past. There is no longer any hope, and you learn that without hope there is little to be afraid of. You want now only to get it over with._

_You step forward into the lock._

_The door behind you shuts. You sense that the one before you is opening, but there is not much time. The burst of air carries you forward. Perhaps you scream, but you are now beyond sound, beyond sight, beyond everything. You do not even feel that it is cold._

CHAPTER I

There is a time for sleep, and a time for waking. But Hyrst had slept heavily, and the waking was hard. He had slept long, and the waking was slow. _Fifty years_, said the dim voice of remembrance. But another part of his mind said, No, it is only tomorrow morning.

Another part of his mind. That was strange. There seemed to be more parts to his mind than he remembered having had before, but they were all confused and hidden behind a veil of mist. Perhaps they were not really there at all. Perhaps--

_Fifty years. I have been dead_, he thought, _and now I live again.

Half a century. Strange._

Hyrst lay on a narrow bed, in a place of subdued light and antiseptic-smelling air. There was no one else in the room. There was no sound.

_Fifty years_, he thought. _What is it like now, the house where I lived once, the country, the planet? Where are my children, where are my friends, my enemies, the people I loved, the people I hated?_

_Where is Elena? Where is my wife?_

A whisper out of nowhere, sad, remote. _Your wife is dead and your children are old. Forget them. Forget the friends and the enemies._

_But I can't forget!_ cried Hyrst silently in the s.p.a.ces of his own mind. It was only yesterday--

_Fifty years_, said the whisper. _And you must forget._

_MacDonald_, said Hyrst suddenly. _I didn't kill him. I was innocent. I can't forget that._

_Careful_, said the whisper. _Watch out._

_I didn't kill MacDonald. Somebody did. Somebody let me pay for it. Who?

Was it Landers? Was it Saul? We four were together out there on t.i.tan, when he died._

_Careful_, Hyrst. _They're coming. Listen to me. You think this is your own mind speaking, question-and-answer. But it isn't._

Hyrst sprang upright on the narrow bed, his heart pounding, the sweat running cold on his skin. _Who are you? Where are you? How--_

_They're here_, said the whisper calmly. _Be quiet._

Two men came into the ward. "I am Dr. Merridew," said the one in the white coverall, smiling at Hyrst with a brisk professional smile. "This is Warden Meister. We didn't mean to startle you. There are a few questions, before we release you--"

_Merridew_, said the whisper in Hyrst's mind, _is a psychiatrist. Let me handle this._

Hyrst sat still, his hands lax between his knees, his eyes wide and fixed in astonishment. He heard the psychiatrist's questions, and he heard the answers he gave to them, but he was merely an instrument, with no conscious volition, it was the whisperer in his mind who was answering. Then the warden shuffled some papers he held in his hand and asked questions of his own.

"You underwent the Humane Penalty without admitting your guilt. For the record, now that the penalty has been paid, do you wish to change your final statements?"

The voice in Hyrst's mind, the secret voice, said swiftly to him. _Don't argue with them, don't get angry, or they'll keep you on and on here._

"But--" thought Hyrst.

_I know you're innocent, but they'll never believe it. They'll keep you on for further psychiatric tests. They might get near the truth, Hyrst--the truth about us._

Suddenly Hyrst began to understand, not all and not clearly, something of what had happened to him. The obscuring mists began to lift from the borders of his mind.

"What is the truth," he asked in that inner quiet, "about us?"

_You've spent fifty years in the Valley of the Shadow. You're changed, Hyrst. You're not quite human any more. No one is, who goes through the freeze. But they don't know that._

"Then you too--"

_Yes. And I too changed. And that is why our minds can speak, even though I am on Mars and you are on its moon. But they must not know that. So don't argue, don't show emotion!_

The warden was waiting. Hyrst said aloud to him, slowly. "I have no statement to make."

The warden did not seem surprised. He went on, "According to your papers here you also denied knowing the location of the t.i.tanite for which MacDonald was presumably murdered. Do you still deny that?"

Hyrst was honestly surprised. "But surely, by now--"

The warden shrugged. "According to this data, it never came to light."

"I never knew," said Hyrst, "where it was."

"Well," said the warden, "I've asked the question and that's as far as my responsibility goes. But there's a visitor who has permission to see you."