Afterlife. Part 24

Chapter Nineteen.

1.

"I'm sorry," the woman at the front guard desk said, looking at her with what Julie a.s.sumed was the kind of sizing up a security guard needed to do if they smelled a stalker. "His show tapes Mondays and Tuesdays. If you'd like to get tickets, the ticket window is-"

"I'm not here to get tickets," she said, and then left abruptly. She got a bagel and bad coffee from a street vendor, and stood on the corner of 53rd and Sixth Avenue, wondering when she had transitioned from a widow to a stalker. and Sixth Avenue, wondering when she had transitioned from a widow to a stalker.

On her cell phone, she dialed the studio, got a recording, and on the recording was an eight-hundred number for buying Michael Diamond's books and tapes. She called it, and got an operator.

"I need to reach him," she said.

"I'm sorry. We're a warehouse fulfillment service," the man said on the phone.

She hung up.

Then she opened the book, and looked at the last few pages. Diamond was s.h.i.+lling his tapes and books and seminars and...consultations.

She called the number listed for the consultations. "I'd like a consultation. But I want it immediately."

"I'm sorry," the young woman said, her voice practically a chirp. "Mr. Diamond has a waiting list. The consultation price is $2,000 for one hour, and I can put you down for...how's October 12th?"

"Listen. I don't care about his schedule. You tell him-or his handlers-that this is Julie Hutchinson. The woman he had on the show recently. The one who he told that someone would die. That person died. You tell him that if I don't see him, and fast, I'm bringing a lawsuit down on his head that will ruin him forever."

2.

He agreed to meet her at a restaurant called Pastis that was just outside the Village, toward Chelsea, in the meat-packing district. They sat outside, the restaurant's awning s.h.i.+elding them from the sun. She ordered steak frites, and he ordered beans on toast and a gla.s.s of white wine.

"So, you're threatening me," he said.

"I had to see you."

"I know."

"What...what was that all about?"

"In the studio? It's what I do. I viewed you."

"Viewed?"

"I go inside people, sometimes. It's like possession, I guess, only I'm not a ghost. It's my mind-it's not magic. It's a genetic mutation, I think. My grandmother had this, too. One percent of the population has it. You know, I thought you hated my guts after our session."

"I did. But...you said things that...well, they were accurate. I had buried them, but they were true. I've never admitted them to anyone. Not my mother, my sister, not my kids."

"I know."

"You know all?"

"No, I don't. I know very little, in fact. What you consider normal intuition-I've got zero. Truthfully, if I didn't have this ability-we call it Ability X-I'd be a b.u.m in the street. In fact, I was, for several years. It goes in and out, depending on a host of factors. But it's come on strong in the past six years, so...well, I've had to make hay while the sun s.h.i.+nes. So, you need my help with something you don't really understand. Is that right?"

Julie nodded. Their food came, and Julie picked at her French fries.

"But you don't really believe," he said. "Now."

"I thought you said belief doesn't matter. There are things I need to know."

"About your husband."

She nodded. "I know it sounds crazy, but..." "You've seen his ghost," Diamond said.

"I wish that's what it felt like. I think I'm losing my mind, since he died. I think my mind is flas.h.i.+ng on and off or something. A few nights ago, I thought I saw him. As close as you are. I thought I saw him, but then, when I turned on the light, he wasn't there. And then, on a video I made. He is in it. But the video goes bad. All the videos went bad."

"I have to tell you, Julie. I don't believe in ghosts. Not like you're saying. I don't believe there are physical manifestations of spirits where you can see them."

"So, I guess I'm halfway to the psych hospital," she said, and tried not to imagine Amanda Hutchinson.

"I didn't mean that," he said. "I meant, sometimes what happens is our brain gives access to projections- so what we see isn't a ghost, so much as...well, a movie. A movie our mind creates, influenced by either our own psychic ability, or someone nearby who has that ability. Your daughter, for example."

"Livy?"

"Well, you told me about her brain radio. She thinks she communicates with her dead father."

"I didn't tell you that."

He grinned. "For all you know, you live in a psychic household. Let's a.s.sume your daughter has some psychic ability. Anyone else in your family have this?"

"My mother thinks she does. But she doesn't. Believe me, she doesn't."

"It's usually genetic."

"Ah."

"I can tell by that 'ah' that you think this is one loony bin candidate talking to another. Think what you want, just stay with me on this. You've read my books. You know what remote viewing is. That's why you're here. You know about the Stream, don't you?"

She nodded. "In your book. It's what connects consciousness between people."

"It's fluid, and just because physics hasn't yet described it, doesn't mean it won't eventually be mapped out just like DNA. I believe it's the connection between entire species. Ants have it-and it's obvious they do. Birds that migrate have it. As we go up the food chain, it seems to have been weeded out. Who knows why. And now, it just shows up as a genetic burp. That's what I think I am: a burp."

She laughed, and for just a moment forgot her headache-the one that hadn't disappeared in days.

"I am here," she said, "to find out if you know about something called Project Daylight."

3.

A strange look flickered across his face, as if he were deciding on something that might affect her.

"It was your father running that program. Am I correct?"

He nodded. "Yes."

"It was on the sixth floor of an apartment building on Rosetta Street."

Again, he nodded. "It began as a sleep study for children with certain disorders. My father hired several medical people to oversee aspects of it, but this was a cover for what it was really about. He had received funding from the Army to find out if there was a key to turning on Ability X in people. Children with the ability seemed to have an easier time of it. My father was misguided. He a.s.sumed all children were good. But they are not. Some children...well, particularly children who had come from abuse and were angry and had the seed of something more in them...well, the place was badly ventilated, apparently, and when the fire broke out-caused by faulty wiring, ultimately-many people died. My father was burned. Forty percent of his body, mainly his legs. He lived a few years beyond this, but ended up taking his own life. Project Daylight was a disaster, it cost too much money, and the Army wanted to hide it once the fire happened. So, it got buried."

"My husband was in Project Daylight."

"Then, your husband was psychic. Or had some level of ability. As a child."

"He never told me about his childhood," she said.

"Given what happened in Project Daylight, I doubt he would," Michael Diamond said.

4.

Although she wanted to open up to him, Julie became worried as Diamond spoke to her that she would sound too crazy. She wanted to unleash everything, to ask a thousand questions. But it all came down to one question. The one question she had never known in Hut's entire life. "Do you know who my husband was?"

Diamond put down his fork, and said, "I'm not sure. All of us in that program, Julie, lost memories."

"You were in it?"

"My father had some psychic ability, and I inherited it. My mother, too. People with Ability X often seek each other out. I'm surprised you don't have any."

"Well, I don't."

"You don't really believe in it, do you?"

"I believe that people believe. And maybe I want to know more," she said. "Did you...did you know Hut? Well, his name was Jeff. I don't know what his last name would've been. He was a ward of the state at the time."

"Well, memories were lost, believe me," he said.

She nodded. "A boy was burned."

"He died," Diamond said.

She remembered something that Detective McGuane had mentioned. "Died? I thought he lived. The cops think that man who killed my husband might have been that boy."

"Do they? They think a dead boy killed someone?" He let the question hang in the air. Then he said, "I can show you the few memories I have of it. But they're vague. They're out of focus."

"Show me?"

"Whether or not you believe in Ability X, Julie," he said, "doesn't matter. I can bring you inside myself. I can show you what I remember. At least fragments."

"How?"

"If you really want that, I need total access," he said.

"What does that mean?"

"It means, I need to delve into you-into your psyche. I need to unblock, and open doors in your mind. I need to let things out that you don't want to get out. It's not selective. I can't pick and choose which door to open. I'm just the locksmith. I can unlock the door, but I can't prevent things from spilling out. Do you understand?"

She squinted as she looked at him. "I guess I'm still skeptical. But, when you touched me in the studio that day..."

"Ah. The laying on of hands. In religious mysticism, it's the most important way to Stream. To move from my consciousness into yours. Once you've let me inside you, you can slip into me." He took a sip of wine, and grinned like a teenage boy who just shot off a bottle rocket. "It's like I feel everything the other person has felt. It's like unleas.h.i.+ng impulses. It's like...well, pardon me for saying so, like an o.r.g.a.s.m. And it's scary." He touched the tip of her fingers as she reached for her water gla.s.s. She withdrew her hand.

Maybe he's just nuts, she thought. she thought. Maybe you need to get out of this lunch. Maybe whatever little bulls.h.i.+t ability he has isn't going to be what you want. You're smart, Julie, Eleanor told you that you might hallucinate and see Hut. That it was the normal grief and stress and longing. That it's not some supernatural event. It's just the human mind with a few cracks in it. Maybe you need to get out of this lunch. Maybe whatever little bulls.h.i.+t ability he has isn't going to be what you want. You're smart, Julie, Eleanor told you that you might hallucinate and see Hut. That it was the normal grief and stress and longing. That it's not some supernatural event. It's just the human mind with a few cracks in it.

"Maybe I am am nuts," he said, too easily. nuts," he said, too easily.

"You read my expression," she said. "You wrote that in your book, about the con artists. They know how to read people from body language and even the looks on their faces. My therapist said it, too. Things most of us don't even notice, but you've trained yourself to do."

"But you don't believe that, do you?" he said. "Not after recent experiences. You didn't seek me out because of lack of belief. When I viewed you, Julie, I was there, with you, inside inside you, Julie. The birth of your little girl. Making love to your husband. I was there, with you, in your memory. As creepy as it sounds, it's not. It's a beautiful experience. It's a connection of souls. It's like a spider web inside each of us, and each strand of that web is a different world within us, and each strand shoots out and connects with strands of others, outside of us. A few of us are lucky enough to go inside. We need permission to do it. We can't just slip into someone else. They have to want me inside them." you, Julie. The birth of your little girl. Making love to your husband. I was there, with you, in your memory. As creepy as it sounds, it's not. It's a beautiful experience. It's a connection of souls. It's like a spider web inside each of us, and each strand of that web is a different world within us, and each strand shoots out and connects with strands of others, outside of us. A few of us are lucky enough to go inside. We need permission to do it. We can't just slip into someone else. They have to want me inside them."

His words made her s.h.i.+ver, slightly. Reminding her of words the dark figure had whispered to her in her dreams: Do you want me inside you? Do you want me inside you?

She closed her eyes, made a brief wish, opened them. His face seemed open and warm and una.s.suming.

It was like stepping off a cliff, stepping into his world of psychic "reading."

A world of illogic and mystical c.r.a.p and all the things she'd fought her whole life never to believe.

"Can I trust you?" she asked. "I mean, really trust you?"

He nodded, without hesitation.

"I saw his wounds when he died. I was at the morgue. He is dead. But I see him. I think...I think I'm being haunted by him. Look, I'll pay you whatever it takes just to find out if I'm sane or not."