Paranoia : Split Self 8 Time Passed By

One month have pa.s.sed since that day.

That day thankfully because of the alarm that I barely managed to set I woke up to go to the campus for my exam. I also managed to stay awake and concentrate to finish my exam with concertation as if I am fully awake before I collapse on my desk asleep and awoken by the proctor when the exam was already finished.

That night after I went back to my room, I punished Sui by tickling her until my finger is tired of it since she doesn't need to breath anyway.

Then after that I usually spend my time reading novels as usual before trying to do VR every day and experimented with it, since Sui's knowledge is limited by mine after all, so the things she spew out is pure bulls.h.i.+t or I already know but I forgot about it.

I tried to do it every day since I also want to know if I can improve my brain 'power' like in those fictional stories. I asked Sui to record the time I spend on VR, I also found out I can stimulated things that I haven't experienced or know about in VR but it can't deviate too much.

I once tried to do VR consecutively, you know I sleep, set alarm, VR again but I got a head splitting headache and I never tried again. After a week of training, Sui stated that I didn't have even one millisecond of improvement so I decided to stop and just enjoy it sometimes.

Then after I stopped, Sui encouraged me to do various things that I am afraid of, like swimming in swimming poll where no one else is there, at first Sui swam to with me but then she disappeared, I also scared of the darkness so that usually when I was about to sleep I kept the light on and the moment I pressed the switch I closed my eyes and laid my head on the bed, and such more.

After spending a week conquering my fears which exhaust me, Sui then encouraged me to study which I find more relaxing than conquering my fears but I have to admit, facing your fears head on is more effective than running away from it, even thought not all my fears have been conquered but the easy one is already conquered.

Most of the time, Sui used weird encouragement to encourage me to study, like building an A.I that could take care all of my need so that I can laze around, so that I can research cat girls, and so but sometimes she used a 'normal' encouragement like helping my mother who is hard working or helping my father who is sick with cancer, stroke, and so, the usual sickness that followed cancer.

I admit with her constantly encouraging and reminding me, I spend equal time studying and reading novels. As long as I have read it once, Sui can become my tutor of it, you know reminding me about a certain equation or formula.

You know I always said to myself that I am a genius even though I am doubtful about that, I used examples like how that my friends need weeks of preparation and studying to get the same score with me, when I just studied for a morning except listening in the cla.s.s but this reasoning didn't convince me since I didn't really know whenever they did the same as me.

True to what Sui said, I am having less of those thoughts where I am jealous or questioned weird things, but sometimes I just blanked out on my bed and thinks of things, like is really physical interaction is really important but then I instantly answered it, yes it is, it happened with all my question inside my mind, yes it's me not Sui even though Sui is technically a part of me.

Over the course of the month, my cla.s.smate and friends said I have changed, even thought they said they can't put it to word what changed. Some said I looked more handsome, some said I looked more muscular, some said I looked smarter, that last one maybe influences by how I seem to be able to rival the best in my cla.s.s when handling Quiz or doing exercise.

When I asked Sui, what changed. She instantly smiled and hugged me, saying that I am only more confident, that confident changed small things in my action which combined with more other small changes and then it causes a drastic change.

You could say Sui Is a part of me and yet she isn't, even if she said that what she knows is just some knowledge I forgotten I am sometimes not convinced about it but what else I can do but to believe what Sui said unlike those MC in many novels that hated their freedom taken I am fine with my freedom take as long as I am happy about it but there must be a certain level of 'freedom' that is left for me.

If in fact that Sui is an very, very higher being than me that taken interest in me, I mean a good one, I would be happy because it means I am special. Yes, even at this age I still want to be the special one or something.

Also in this one month I sometimes took Sui out to a date, well it's more like I am drinking and eating what she wants while watching her 'eat' the same thing in front of me, window shopping woman's clothes, I was really embarra.s.sed about that especially when Sui nagged at me, wanting to visit a woman's lingerie shop, I was very embarra.s.sed when the woman inside stared at me when I looked over things inside that shop while remaining outside.

Right after that one month pa.s.sed, my mother who sometimes called me or messaged me since I very, very rarely called her first. Messaged me with line saying "Michael, Grandpa just died." While sending a picture of her with Grandpa laying inside an opened coffin with a white see trough cloth covering the opening.